my life through my tinted glasses
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Just nothing.. hmmm..Well.. life is pretty the same... still going for courses... but now are better course and they are relevant to my work.. for now.. i feel i am more or less equipped with the skills to start working (oh yah.. though i started work 1.5 months ago, i havent really started working.. ha ha.. contradicting eh.. ) well.. i am raring to go.. before my engines run for too long, and start to get bored with work..hmm.. nothing serious to blog on.. so these are all random thoughts.. thoughts on how should i spend my weekends more effectively.. well.. these few weekends have been staying at home.. watching tv... drama serials.. anime.. movies.. anything to do with the tv.. feeling like a couch potato.. getting fat.. so i thought i shld get on and do some exercise.. like.. swimming, jogging and cycling.. i started with swimming.. average of 35 laps per swim.. after swimming is shiok man.. go home and slp immediately.. hahaz. well.. looking forward to start with jogging.. probably by the end of this week.. when my friend help me to redeem a pair of running shoes from e-mart.. probably i will start jogging then.. for cycling.. it is a little tough, as i do not have a bike to start with. was thinking of getting dear's one, but his family is using it.. so.. well.. cant really take from pple's house just like that right? so.. maybe i can start with biathalon.. and trithalon can wait. ha haz.. talking big eh..Thoughts on when i can visit dear again in taiwan... a big question mark.. as i dunno how available i am.. i dunno when are my peak (actually i do.. and it seems forever for now.. with 3 guys ORD-ing.. and the 3 officers in my branch take on duties for a branch of 6) .. so i dunno when i can go over.. pretty sad isnt it? hmmm.. life alone isnt easy.. requires lots of mental strength. i always believe, that with mutual trust and mutual understanding.. and lots of putting-urself-in-his-shoes scenario helps.. sometimes we just see things from our perspective.. when we actually start to empathsize with the other party... there will be less self-pity.. i hope i can stand by this principle as long as i can.. humans being humans.. they are just selfish isnt it? Needs lots of effort to be less selfish, and start thinking of other pple's needs...Thoughts on... my birthday.. ha haz.. pretty self-centred eh.. well.. just curious.. what will happened? it is my second birthday, alone without dear with me.. and there will be one more.. in 2007. what will happened? will it be just another day in the office.. doing my work.. going home.. and slp.. just another day.. shall not think and dwell too much into it.. trying to force that thought out... come to think of it, expecting that day to pass like any other normal day.. will be good.. set ur expectation low, and everything will come as a surprise.. thoughts on.. why did i spend $19.00 to watch Over The Hedge with my brother.. after much talk with my friends and saying it is a good show.. i decided to spend the money to watch with my brother today.. but to find it.. okie.. so-so.. but i would say it is terrific show to teach young children.. what is trust.. what is friendship.. what is selfishness.. what is loyalty.. what is wrong.. and what is right.. lots of things to learn.. probably it will be good for presentation.. to highlight a specific point... well.. i agree that $19.00 is a little steep.. but in exchange for time spend with my brother.. and also.. to think that he doesnt have much opportunity to watch movies.. guess it is just for me to bring him there...thoughts on.. why didnt i go catch soccer with the other guys.. it is an ENGLAND match! haiz.. but bad timing.. no one, other then my brother is at home.. i can just imagine him alone at home.. on a Sunday.. 1 day before school reopens.. pretty sad isnt it.. i can just start to feel what a empty home is like.. it just takes me 1 night to feel it. It was a thursday night.. My elder bro is in his unit.. my youngest bro has a school camp.. my dad went for his chi gong lesson and my mum was working. it was just me at home.. the house was sooo quite.. i was pretty lost, and it din help that i reach home by 5pm as my course ended early.. wanted to jog, but no jogging shoes... wanted to swim. but pretty lazy with the pool so far away.. so.. ended up slping.. it was then, i realise.. loneliness can be pretty scary isnt it.. if dear is still in singapore then, probably i wun be stuck at home.. but.. the fact is.. he is not... yeah.. he is not.. have to live with that fact.. thoughts on.. whether dear is happy over there... sometimes i think being able to work overseas for 2 years.. and in ROC.. is pretty interesting.. if i was given the chance to do that, i will grab the opportunity immediately.. so i dun really take to heart that dear just left for 2 years like that.. it took me some time to see from that perspective.. took me lots of effort to force myself from thinking in that direction.. if not, i would just go into blaming mode.. and start questioning.. why did he just leave me like that.. well.. i have to remind myself most of the time that.. if i am given the same chance, what will i do? and most likely.. my answer will be to go, definately.. hence.. i concluded that.. if he is happy.. i will be happy for him too.. if i threaten to break up, just becos he is going overseas.. he may stay.. but.. he wun be happy.. isnt it? so, it is better for me to let him go.. experience what he wants to experience.. and if he wants to come back.. he will come back... so that, in years to come.. he wun lament that he actually gave away the chance of working overseas when he is given one... i will feel worse that way...thoughts on.. marriage.. ha ha.. scary isnt it? my dad's cousin's daughter is getting married.. they came over to pass my parents the invitation card earlier this morning.. ha ha.. start to think.. is it the time where all my friends will start to get married soon? Well.. we have a mutual friend, planning to get married next year.. pple ard me are starting to plan their future.. leading me to think that.. should is start thinking of my future too? My dad is starting to think of my future for me.. goodness! thinking that i shld get my masters now.. so that.. when dear is overseas for 1 more year.. i wun be wasting my time.. and by the time i finish my MBA.. i would be in time for marriage.. ha ha ha.. great plan i would say.. just that.. i dun have the qualifications to.. MBA requires min. 2 years of working experience before i can even enrol.. guess my dad is too eager.. dear's parents are also thinking of the number of tables we need.. ha ha ha.. that was just a joke la.. i mean.. they just brought it up in a joking manner.. but the fact is: they are thinking! and the joke is: everyone is thinking.. but not US.. funny isnt it? haiz.. Thoughts on.. what do i want to address the commander on commander's parade.. all new comers will have to be introduced to the school.. he specifically asked for a few questions. 1. self introduction. 2. previous unit and appointment and what did u learn there.. 3. what do you wish to introduce to the school. 4. what do u wish to contribute / gain from the experience here.. well well.. i dunno how to answer question 2 itself.. it is on friday.. so i better think hard.. haiz.. wow.. that is a lot of thots isnt it? i tot i have nothing to talk abt.. ha haz..
