its friday.. and it suxed

i tot friday can go by quite peacefully.. well.. first thing... cressandra chew came in to complain that some stuff has not been transported to yishun branch... well.. i m unsure becos marcella mentioned that the documents can wait till she is back... but.. think when she is ard that time.. not urgent.. till my week.. its urgent already.. well.. this case spoilt my morning.. guess the guys at the top are fending for me again.. ee peng called me to clarify the matter.. then mei also called.. wah.. like big thing happened like that... sigh..i hope i did not caused marcella to be in trouble.. wonder if anyone failed PA.

sigh.. now i see welch's or ee peng's name.. i scared...marcella called back to ask me how m i today.. told her abt the DL and ML's case.. she was so shocked. well.. will fill her in more when she returns..

sigh.. then my PA tutor called to tell me that she has no time to meet up with me and ee peng... jialat la like that.. even my tutor dun care me..

then on my way to PS.. i actually remembered that i forgot to update the stock board.. that brought my spirits even lower.. i think raymond's phrase very true in this context.. no one remembers wat you did rite.. but everyone remembers what you did wrong.. its so true

then tot go watch movie will bring the day to a better closure.. then reach PS.. no more tickets for shreck 2.. dun tok abt other movies la.. all selling fast.. sigh.. huge disappointment.. really brings my mood to rock bottom..

then JS came with an upset stomach.. so.. we went to have milo and then walk about.. see he cannot take it liao.. go guardian to buy med and let him take.. then send him home.. tata.. m now at his house updating my blog..

then he scold me for not being attentive to him.. i feel so accused.. send him home.. dun disturb him slp.. he say i not attentive.. that phrase.. hurt me.. and also make me think that he's unreasonable.. well.. think sick pple think alike.. probably its just he not feeling well...

now dunno how to take dinner.. the timing very weird.. very tempted to go home and have dinner and save the $$.. no $$ liao.. feeling poor again.. esp when i walked at PS.. things that i usually can afford.. i can no longer afford now.. that is one of the reason y i was feeling so down at PS.. dun think JS know anything about that..

think i m left with 150 bucks to sustain for the month.. can survive la.. but without frills lor..

trying to apply 10/90 the whole day.. but just cannot apply.. dunno how to apply.. prob too emotional.. or my hormones are playing with me again..

when i reach home then i see if i have anything to update..

cheok.. are we gg swimming tml??
  ¶ 8:36 PM

  tml is friday.. n i m not exactly very excited about it. y?

tml is friday... for the past 2 weeks.. i kept looking towards fridays... this is so unexpected of myself. i mean.. y the drastic change? hmm..

i cant stand the receptionist job.. its a low position yet stressful job. in that post, you cant control your situation.. you cant make mistakes.. as mistakes can be told rite away by anyone. esp the asia pacific office.. they are less forgiving.. well.. i m trying to not to have the mentality of having "i m new.. so, pls forgive me" mentality. not healthy.. should not have any excuses for your wrongdoings. however.. i tend to think that statement is very helpful in helping you get away with things.. sigh.. that is not rite...

in the morn.. welch came in, and i explain wat happened yesterday to her.. just that i missed out abt me calling the wrong person down.. well.. she say she will settle.. in the end.. i think backfired.. think DL stated in the email something about me la.. then think that is quite a fight upstairs la.. wah.. sianz.. and that is all becos of my blunder..

cant believe it now.. as i recalled that i made yet another blunder at work just now.. and i just recalled it now.. how ridiculous..

i cant survive in the world out there with this mentality.. this mentality is causing me to go home demoralised.. and gg home feeling low whole day.. sighz...

tml is fri. i should look fwd to it..but y m i not? i think becos i scared i made any blunders tml.. and that blunder cannot be rectfied immediately, till monday.. theni very sianz.. i m stressing myself unncessary.. but cant help it...

my spirits are gg lower and lower day by day.. sighz.. but i do get to know a lot of pple thru the receptionist job.. at least.. not so bad.. think that is the only plus point of the job...

i was discussion with Hwee choo whether does she wans to go back to BD to work if she is given a position after she graduate...she say prob not.. y are pple getting this feeling? the culture is not rite.. and the HR department (my department) is not doing anything to correct this culture.. well.. they are lucky becos currently the job market is loose.. they can afford to choose and pick their employees.. and that the employees will stay put in their job.. though they hate it.. becos the market out there is not good... imagine one day.. the market turns better.. and pple start job hopping... think .. BD will get into trouble.. but that day may not be here as experts have forcasted that the job market will never go back to the early 90s.. will not be as vibrant.. sigh.. we will be manipulated by out companies...

sigh... wat ta do?
  ¶ 8:55 PM

  horrible day

today.. actually everything went just nice.. morning reception.. nothing much to do...

think everything started when some one gave me ard 10-20 DHL to complete.. i was like.. "woah!" things went thru almost like monday... was rushing thru all the DHLs.. and trying to do the normal things as per usual.. tough!

then.. welch came to ask me abt the zoo passes... well.. i told her my position.. and suggest balloting.. she seems to be quite receptive to the idea.. she says she will discuss with me further regarding this issue tml... but.. becos she was discussing the issue with me.. it delayed my time.. and i started packing late..

well.. then.. i started packing at 430.. and was hurrying all the way.. then realised that DL's passports wasnt collected yet.. i mistaken DL and ML.. and could not find ML.. so i asked SL to help me look for her.. well.. of course ML was wondering wat the h*ll SL was saying.. and was very rude to her.. so.. ML came down to see who is looking for her.. apparently.. that time DL came down liao.. n only when ML came down.. i realised that i got the wrong person.. after ML went back up.. SL called and so-called scolded me for getting the wrong person...

so.. bottom line is.. i stepped on 2 person's feet.. ML's and SL's.. that's not all.. then DL's passport not take care off.. and was angry.. so i rushed over to the security.. hand over the passport to the security.. ask him to go over asap to take over from DL. pengz.. was panting like mad... then i rushed out.. the time was 1659.. one more min, my bus will be gone!..

i rushed up my bus.. realised that the bus was full.. then i .. err.. how..? so, a lady is nice enough to share her seat with me. i was panting like mad.. thinking if i did all things correctly.. sigh...

on the bus.. i was thinking that i should have just missed my bus.. and just stayed for DL's passport. no point so rushed for the sake of taking a bus...

when i got off the bus.. i called SL immediately to apologised.. she was still very angry.. actually not angry becos of me.. but becos of ML.. becos she was very rude to her.. actually.. all started with me la.. becos i recognised wrong person.. then caused all these prob.. but.. SL was angry.. but not exactly with me.. she was just airring her complain with me.. but i took it too personally and actually cried on my way home.. haha.. now think of it.. also dunno why i cried.. prob becos firstly.. she was quite loud.. becos she was angry.. secondly.. she was consoling me.. and telling me wat to do the next time wrong.. and not to commit the same mistake twice.. and i was i think... touched.. becos she did not blame me.. but consoled me instead.. she was joking say.. so.. scared already ah? tml dun dare to come to work already ah? well.. my voice was already quivering.. probably she heard it...

well.. was pissed with the org.. becos the ang moh side.. pple think that they are high up there.. and not really nice to the pple who are not big shots.. but i was also quite pleased and consoling to know that there are pple like azlina.. (helped me for the bill of lading..) and SL .. these are the pple who encouraged me to go on continuing the rest of my PA...

well.. was not feeling well in the morn.. and was feeling better in the afternoon.. went back to the not feeling well in the evening.. roller coaster ah...  ¶ 9:44 PM

  sighz...

at office now.. nothing to do for the moment.. trying to do some fyp research in the meantime. well.. yesterday.. tot got nothing to do.. in the end.. so bz like mad sia.. until 4.30 then pack up and rushed for my bus..

well.. today seems to be less hectic.. well see how la..

my colleague coming down to relieve me soon.. gg for lunch...
tata~  ¶ 11:08 AM

  its sunday!!

well.. tml monday liao.. gg to start my reception work, all by myself. well.. i quite looking forward to it though.. all by myself.. have time and space to do things by myself.. my things.. well.. my sup did give me things to do.. she say ask me to do it for the rest of my attachement.. i think i can finish by the end of the week.. well.. shall see how la.. can surf net and update my blog too. haha

well.. now picked up a new activity.. doing embriodary now.. very interesting.. and very easy.. effect also very nice.. so.. will see how la.. when my whole pic turns out lor..

well.. got lots of things to do this week.. got heartware stuff.. got embriodery.. got fyp meeting.. got to meet up with cheok on thurs (cheok dun forget ah!) got work.. pengz.. will be bz.. but i like this type of busy lifestyle.. and of course.. with my boy boy.. haha...

okie la.. me gtg to ye ye house..

prob can upload another blog by tml!!

tata~!  ¶ 8:05 PM