my life through my tinted glasses
Friday, July 15, 2005
:: Dear called! ::
It made my day! though it came at 1130pm.. it really made my day.. before that, on my way home.. cant help but think of dear.. when i listen to my mp3, there are some songs that i dun fancy, but eventually like it because of dear.. that makes me think of him...
when he called.. i was sooo surprised because he did not mention that he will call... so that phone call perked me up, so high that i am still in the 'high' mode.. cant slp!
he talked about things in camp, that he is suppose to go dunno where, then dunno wad's it mulitplying-day, where, if u do one good thing today, u will keep having good things happen to u, and if you do one bad thing today.. u will have bad things recurring.. hmm.. interesting...
and he mentioned that he bought animals to be released.. called fang sheng.. chickens, frogs, etc that was due to be slaughtered, but they bought and release them.. well.. according to him, the place the animals in the centre of the basketball court and chant prayers and at the end, since they chanted prayers, their saliva are blessed, so they contributed saliva to a bottle, and sprinkle on the animals, so that they are blessed as well.. hmm..interesting custom.. well.. i think the animals are frightened though...
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okie.. enough of him.. i decided to update my blog regularly, so that dear can read at his own pace, when he's free anytime.. well.. he may not be so free to read my blog, but i will be proactive and send the blog to his email.. so that he can be updated on wad's happening here, and not miss home too much.. trying to help him ease into the place there... dear, JIA YOU!
here, okie.. just hear from his sis that his parents missed him a lot, i asked his sis to go home earlier, so to accompany them.. well.. hopefully when the dvd player arrive, the house will be less quiet.. starting to plan for his sis's birthday.. my uncle cant help out because its ard the 7th month, and my uncle will be quite bz.. so.. sad, cant help her much.. but i promise to get her a black berry cake.. or issit blue berries.. hmm.. i am confused.. will ask her again...
convo just passed yesterday. its a hectic day.. horrible.. i went to school at around 4pm with yeye, daddy, mummy and alvin first.. went to take some photos..well.. i dun look too bad in my convo gown.. looks quite nice actually.. haha.. it looks even nicer when all graduates are seated together.. smarter.. dear, will post up some photos.. no choice, this one u have to visit my blog to see the photos.. cant send to them to u.. too big!
well.. i am glad that the first week is almost over.. and we are doing fine.. dear, u have to call back frequently k... i was so happy hearing ur voice, that my lips cant help quivering, and almost teared.. think PMS la.. so, a little emotional... okie.. understand that ur work is important.. but, just call maybe once every 3 days.. i will be more then glad... well.. at least there's communication.. cant just ignore us and b bz with work noe.. that is a cut off of communication, and things may not turn out good after too long not communicating...
okie., its late.. its almost 1am.. i am tired.. but drank coffee at 5pm because i was soo tired at work, and now, i cant slp... and made worse when dear called and perked me up.. hmmm...
will try to get some slp.. looking fwd to next week.. because its packed...
Fri nite: Gers nites' out
Sat: NDP and some quiet time to my own
Sun: Going over to dear's place.. to visit his parents...
Mon: photo taking at studio
tues: meeting with insurance agent
wed: korean class
thurs: driving
fri: dunno.. gers' nites' out again?
sat: NDP i guess...
packed? i guess so too... cool.. fill my week with activity.. and i will be preoccupied with things in my head.. and time wil pass faster...
its almost 15 weeks away from visiting dear in taiwan as planned.. thinking of 29th Oct - 6 Nov.. pls.. let it be available for dear.. plss..... *praying very hard.. * pls....
okie.. need to get some slp.. probably photos tml or sat okie..
miss u dear.. salangheyo~
It made my day! though it came at 1130pm.. it really made my day.. before that, on my way home.. cant help but think of dear.. when i listen to my mp3, there are some songs that i dun fancy, but eventually like it because of dear.. that makes me think of him...
when he called.. i was sooo surprised because he did not mention that he will call... so that phone call perked me up, so high that i am still in the 'high' mode.. cant slp!
he talked about things in camp, that he is suppose to go dunno where, then dunno wad's it mulitplying-day, where, if u do one good thing today, u will keep having good things happen to u, and if you do one bad thing today.. u will have bad things recurring.. hmm.. interesting...
and he mentioned that he bought animals to be released.. called fang sheng.. chickens, frogs, etc that was due to be slaughtered, but they bought and release them.. well.. according to him, the place the animals in the centre of the basketball court and chant prayers and at the end, since they chanted prayers, their saliva are blessed, so they contributed saliva to a bottle, and sprinkle on the animals, so that they are blessed as well.. hmm..interesting custom.. well.. i think the animals are frightened though...
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okie.. enough of him.. i decided to update my blog regularly, so that dear can read at his own pace, when he's free anytime.. well.. he may not be so free to read my blog, but i will be proactive and send the blog to his email.. so that he can be updated on wad's happening here, and not miss home too much.. trying to help him ease into the place there... dear, JIA YOU!
here, okie.. just hear from his sis that his parents missed him a lot, i asked his sis to go home earlier, so to accompany them.. well.. hopefully when the dvd player arrive, the house will be less quiet.. starting to plan for his sis's birthday.. my uncle cant help out because its ard the 7th month, and my uncle will be quite bz.. so.. sad, cant help her much.. but i promise to get her a black berry cake.. or issit blue berries.. hmm.. i am confused.. will ask her again...
convo just passed yesterday. its a hectic day.. horrible.. i went to school at around 4pm with yeye, daddy, mummy and alvin first.. went to take some photos..well.. i dun look too bad in my convo gown.. looks quite nice actually.. haha.. it looks even nicer when all graduates are seated together.. smarter.. dear, will post up some photos.. no choice, this one u have to visit my blog to see the photos.. cant send to them to u.. too big!
well.. i am glad that the first week is almost over.. and we are doing fine.. dear, u have to call back frequently k... i was so happy hearing ur voice, that my lips cant help quivering, and almost teared.. think PMS la.. so, a little emotional... okie.. understand that ur work is important.. but, just call maybe once every 3 days.. i will be more then glad... well.. at least there's communication.. cant just ignore us and b bz with work noe.. that is a cut off of communication, and things may not turn out good after too long not communicating...
okie., its late.. its almost 1am.. i am tired.. but drank coffee at 5pm because i was soo tired at work, and now, i cant slp... and made worse when dear called and perked me up.. hmmm...
will try to get some slp.. looking fwd to next week.. because its packed...
Fri nite: Gers nites' out
Sat: NDP and some quiet time to my own
Sun: Going over to dear's place.. to visit his parents...
Mon: photo taking at studio
tues: meeting with insurance agent
wed: korean class
thurs: driving
fri: dunno.. gers' nites' out again?
sat: NDP i guess...
packed? i guess so too... cool.. fill my week with activity.. and i will be preoccupied with things in my head.. and time wil pass faster...
its almost 15 weeks away from visiting dear in taiwan as planned.. thinking of 29th Oct - 6 Nov.. pls.. let it be available for dear.. plss..... *praying very hard.. * pls....
okie.. need to get some slp.. probably photos tml or sat okie..
miss u dear.. salangheyo~
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
:: ok! successful! going to put up more photos ::
Me and dear at the airport. He's about to enter already....
Dear and my Family... Do i look like the one who's going to fly?
Two Families together.. was so wierd.. hmm how 2 people can pull 9 pple together.. isnt that amazing?
Our friends.. mutual friends.. know most of them.. come to think about it.. i know most of his friends, but he know onli a few of my friends.. so if he ever bullies me..i know i have many pple supporting me! haha.. even his family is behind me! wahaha
Me and dear at the airport. He's about to enter already....
:: Pictures ! ::
Trying to load some pictures for all to share.. see if i am successful...
Trying to load some pictures for all to share.. see if i am successful...
Dear with his family: Him, his dad, his mum and his sis, Hui Yi!
Monday, July 11, 2005
:: thanks elaine, carol and mas ::
forget to bring the candle out of Village sia.. or else can post pictures. haha
the lovely gers in the office brought me out for a birthday lunch today.. haha.. they are so farni.. they were like...
elaine: Jo, lets go for lunch
Jo: u all go first la.. meeting my friend for lunch...
elaine, carol, mas: huh....
i sense that something is not right, like, y all 3 "huh"-ed at the same time...
Thank you gers, the waffle is great, the straw berries did make me slightly high...
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I am thankful that i have caring friends around me.. with the office gers, w apah asking, with PPT often encouraging over the net, with YH keeping a look out for me.. i am thankful that i have friends around me, and not isolated alone...
3 years with him, i lost much of my social circle.. lost contact with my JC classmates, with my uni friends, HW volunteers and stuff... but i will gain them back, to make my life fulfilling...
i am also glad that i have a lot of things to do in the office. time flies so much faster.. stayed back to finish my stuff... felt so fulfilling.. feel like i reverted to my old self.. like the joanna 2 years ago, who pia3 thru heartware stuff, regardless wad time it was in the morning, no time off even.. but of course, i need someone who stays back in the office with me.. so, who ever needs to work late, let me know, i will most probably work late too....
working is a way to fill up my time... i am so tired when i am home that i have no space, no energy to think of any thing silly... not to look at the mrt train, and imagine dear with me on the seat... not to look at the pasar malam near my place and imagine us walking thru the nite market.. no time, no energy.. time flies, and i can see dear faster...
of course there are better ways to spend my time too.. like knitting, driving.. blogging, collating my blogs, look for bargains online.. post stuff online to sell.. and things like that...
guess these will b the things that last me till i see dear again...
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my friend just broke up with his gf.. haiz.. its so sad.. i mean, relationship just gone like that.. how to take it.. i jsut temp not with dear, how's he going to cope with all his free time.. suddenly free with so much time on ur hands, dunno how to cope with life sia.. i wish him all the best!
realised that how a relationship can be so fragile, not communicating well.. taking each other for granted.. not seeing each other.. such simple things can make or break a relationship.. it needs nurturing.. and patience to build it up... haiz... need care and concern, so cautious not to let it have any cracks .. to be flawless... how difficult
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saw jamie on the train today.. that ger is in a confuse state of mind sia.. ( shall not tell how) haha.. but she saw my nick on msn and asked me wad happened.. told her and she empathised with me.. like there's no one to complain to... no one to sms all small small things to... no one to hear me talk... haiz..
had this feeling when dear mentioned that he is tired and did not wan a web conference. haiz. how disappointed i was.. it was my motivation to get home fast to get online to talk to him.. but to the end, the motivation was gone, and how depressed i became.. luckily i had some preparation that he may not come online at all, and counted my blessing that i actually saw him online and shared some stuff with him.. but haiz.. still did not have the time to actually find out how's life on his side.. has he adjusted to life over there.. any interesting things that happened.. haiz..
probably we should maintain a blog each, such that i update my life on my blog, so that he can read off, without talking to me... he can get the best updates, and know's wad's happening in my life.. something to look fwd to at the end of a bz day? how abt u updating ur blog too dear? that is provided u are not so bz ye.. haiz...
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feeling so tired.. think the coffee effect wearing off... groggy suddenly.. was so slpy that i took a nescafe at 3pm.. and it lasted till ard 10 plus .. not bad!.. think i have to maintain a 2 cups a day dosage to keep me thru the day... okie... so slpy.. think i will start talking nonsense soon.. n start typing with my eyes close.. haha..
tata~
thanks to all who wished me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. though sad, at least i know u cared. thanks!
forget to bring the candle out of Village sia.. or else can post pictures. haha
the lovely gers in the office brought me out for a birthday lunch today.. haha.. they are so farni.. they were like...
elaine: Jo, lets go for lunch
Jo: u all go first la.. meeting my friend for lunch...
elaine, carol, mas: huh....
i sense that something is not right, like, y all 3 "huh"-ed at the same time...
Thank you gers, the waffle is great, the straw berries did make me slightly high...
************************************
I am thankful that i have caring friends around me.. with the office gers, w apah asking, with PPT often encouraging over the net, with YH keeping a look out for me.. i am thankful that i have friends around me, and not isolated alone...
3 years with him, i lost much of my social circle.. lost contact with my JC classmates, with my uni friends, HW volunteers and stuff... but i will gain them back, to make my life fulfilling...
i am also glad that i have a lot of things to do in the office. time flies so much faster.. stayed back to finish my stuff... felt so fulfilling.. feel like i reverted to my old self.. like the joanna 2 years ago, who pia3 thru heartware stuff, regardless wad time it was in the morning, no time off even.. but of course, i need someone who stays back in the office with me.. so, who ever needs to work late, let me know, i will most probably work late too....
working is a way to fill up my time... i am so tired when i am home that i have no space, no energy to think of any thing silly... not to look at the mrt train, and imagine dear with me on the seat... not to look at the pasar malam near my place and imagine us walking thru the nite market.. no time, no energy.. time flies, and i can see dear faster...
of course there are better ways to spend my time too.. like knitting, driving.. blogging, collating my blogs, look for bargains online.. post stuff online to sell.. and things like that...
guess these will b the things that last me till i see dear again...
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my friend just broke up with his gf.. haiz.. its so sad.. i mean, relationship just gone like that.. how to take it.. i jsut temp not with dear, how's he going to cope with all his free time.. suddenly free with so much time on ur hands, dunno how to cope with life sia.. i wish him all the best!
realised that how a relationship can be so fragile, not communicating well.. taking each other for granted.. not seeing each other.. such simple things can make or break a relationship.. it needs nurturing.. and patience to build it up... haiz... need care and concern, so cautious not to let it have any cracks .. to be flawless... how difficult
********************************
saw jamie on the train today.. that ger is in a confuse state of mind sia.. ( shall not tell how) haha.. but she saw my nick on msn and asked me wad happened.. told her and she empathised with me.. like there's no one to complain to... no one to sms all small small things to... no one to hear me talk... haiz..
had this feeling when dear mentioned that he is tired and did not wan a web conference. haiz. how disappointed i was.. it was my motivation to get home fast to get online to talk to him.. but to the end, the motivation was gone, and how depressed i became.. luckily i had some preparation that he may not come online at all, and counted my blessing that i actually saw him online and shared some stuff with him.. but haiz.. still did not have the time to actually find out how's life on his side.. has he adjusted to life over there.. any interesting things that happened.. haiz..
probably we should maintain a blog each, such that i update my life on my blog, so that he can read off, without talking to me... he can get the best updates, and know's wad's happening in my life.. something to look fwd to at the end of a bz day? how abt u updating ur blog too dear? that is provided u are not so bz ye.. haiz...
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feeling so tired.. think the coffee effect wearing off... groggy suddenly.. was so slpy that i took a nescafe at 3pm.. and it lasted till ard 10 plus .. not bad!.. think i have to maintain a 2 cups a day dosage to keep me thru the day... okie... so slpy.. think i will start talking nonsense soon.. n start typing with my eyes close.. haha..
tata~
thanks to all who wished me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. though sad, at least i know u cared. thanks!
