I m fine!! = )

Oh well, to all my friends who encouraged me.. like eve, ivy, cheok and ppt for their encouragement, Rach for her chocs, mas for saying i m a chief nagger... barry who often encourage me.. and of course a lot of other friends who may or may not read my blog.. thanks so much!!

it always thru times like these, you realise that there are pple out there who are concern, who cares for you.. and they helped you to prevent the thought of the fastest way down... haiz..

so to all of you out there, i will TRY my very best to cope with all the nonsense i have in my life.. hahaz.. =P

just watched a japanese show on channel 5. the show is ying yang shi.. something like someone who can control spirits in Jap.. hmm.. i saw the cultural difference.. like.. hong kong there is the taoist.. then there are monks.. then western there are priests. But they all come from the same objective, to balance and control the 2 or 3 worlds.. depends on different believes.. but i always believe religions are good. they have the same aim, to make the world a better place. just which religion you choose to follow. So i see no need to bring any religion down, or say any religion is bogus, unless it is a cult that have the objective of harming fellow human beings and other lives on this earth. Hence, i also see no need to constantly brag or ask pple to change their religion. I always believe the religion lies in your heart. As long as you are sincere, which ever religion you follow, the forces will know.. hmm... and of course bless you... oh well.. so much for a japanese show... i think i crossed into sensitive lane.. hahaz.. oh well.. its my blog.. it is my space..

okie.. here i m, gearing up to face the challenges i have this semester. this semester is the siong-est sem i have in my 3 yrs of varsity education. there are no 2 ways about this. there is only one road.. the the road i have taken is the toughest one..

but...

i can overcome it.. so do you, my friends. We are all stuck in this.. and friends, lets walk out of this tunnel together yeh.. = )

Lets be positive.. it is all in the mind.. say no negative statements.. and reinforce positive statements.. this is the reinforcement theory.. oh yeh.. i paid attention in T and D class okie! wahahaha

okie it is getting late. need to read abt Political Econs.. leaving home early for a swim with Cheok.. okie.. that will be our second swim this sem.. and more to come yeh.. hahaz.. i m starting to get use to this pace a little.. let's just hope it doesnt quicken to fast before i know it. = )

again...





  ¶ 1:48 AM

  SOb.. Sob...

Crying alone in my room feels so lonely... no one knows.. no shoulder to cry on.. jus me, and my computer.. that is y i chose to blog..

i dunno y.. but tears start to drop. when i think of work, sch, fyp... am i worrying too much, as boss said? i think again... reflect again... i dun think so..

it is like.. everyone thinks that wad they demand of me is so minimal, shld be of no prob. but, hey.. everyone thinks the same way! so i have a lot to do.... everything is fighting for my attention.. so much so i dunno where to start from, and how to get it moving....

i told myself.. i have to be strong.. the road ahead is not smooth, but i can carry on.. but.. all these words seemed to be deceiving myself.. = (

i tot of putting in less hours, and taking lesser allowance.. however, as much as i hope to do so, i realised i CANT.. wad m i suppose to give mother? i cant live on my savings.. there arent left. do i spend a lot? i forsee myself eating bread for lunch, starve dinner till i reach home. but is that a solution? probably.

i regretted buying my hp.. thinking of selling it away.. i cant even indulge.. its a birthday present for myself.. taken from the birthday ang baos i collected.. my relatives said.." go get something for yourself.. i dunno wad u wan.." in the end, i used the $ to pay off the chalet, food and to my mum.. still trying to survive on it. i tot spending a hundred shld be ok.. but.. it seems.. not okie.. something yi2 han4 is that.. i dun even get a gift from my parents, on my 21st birthday. see the key necklances my friends have.. sometimes envious.. got a key pendant from my auntie.. my mum did ask if i wan 1.. but.. i said no need.. oh well.. it is not very useful becos i will not be wearing it for long.. but.. its just the significance ba..

okie.. i shall stop crying and complaining.. and see if i can get anything done..


  ¶ 12:23 AM

  3rd week into the semester

It is 3rd week into the semester. Everything is still so grey and dull.. i cant believe it. My long weekend just flew pass like that. sigh, time and tide waits for no man..

oh well.. i better start to be more organised. got LOTs of things to do.. and uh oh.. i m PROCRASTINATING!! Probably someone can just shake me out of it. i am infected by JS's procrastination disease. It cant be cured and the symptoms (stress and late nites )will get more prominent with the days gone pass... help!! probably i need a personal assistant.. to help remind me of all my deadlines regardless of sch or work.

sometimes i just do not have the mood to do things.. then i will tell myself.. nvm la.. tml den start work la.. but.. wad the heck.. i repeat that to myself all the time.. so.. the tml never come... ooooo.. that is BAD!!

Probably i just have to remind myself that TIME AND TIDE WAITS FOR NO MAN! SEIZE THE DAY!!

oh well, hope that helps to get into my head.. *drilling.... drilling.... *

boss just broaden my work scope for me. something that deals with quality or processes.. oh gosh.. wad's that? hahaz. oops.. did you hear my cry for help again??!

sigh.. i seriously wonder y my life has been so tough for the new semester. Y i don't look fwd to classes and starts to miss them so frequently? somethings must have gone wrong!!

BUT WHAT HAS GONE WRONG??

Sigh.. i have no idea..
  ¶ 10:44 AM

  National Day tml...

Hmm.. is that Ivy's topic as well... hahaz..

oh well.. just read PPT's blog.. enjoy reading PPT's blog.. her's so real.. it is as if you saw her dentist plucked out her tooth beside her.. hahaz.. btw, i think dentists are REAL rich pple.. they eat pple up. I wonder if they have conscience.. probably they think they are earning back their course fee. Dentistry courses should be charged higher! = P

oh well, wad's interesting in my life? Cheryl tay? hahahz.. i find her more amusing then interesting.. friends are rather interesting.. how interesting to see your friends drive, and imagining that i m drive too... hahaz.. wad crap.. i realised i became crappier for the semester.. i was quite amazed that everyone is telling me that.. i feel like i m back to my sec 2 life, where the aim of my life is to see pple laugh. = ) i feel very happy when i see pple smile or laugh.. hahaz.. although some are not farni at all.. =P hahaz.. oh well.. i dun mind being a clown in class.. probably not in front of class though.. hahaz..

oh well.. i am blogging aimlessly.. nothing much to blog actually.. hmm.. realise that blogs help you to analyse your life better.. i shall do some reflections now.. hmm...

oh well..i think i m cliquing well with my FYP mates.. had some apprehension at first because they are very good friends, and i seem to be the intruder of their friendship.. hence, i refused to step out of my comfort zone, and remained with my own cliques of friends.. but.. i have to interact with them.. and i realised that they are not as scary as i tot...not that they have 3 eyes and sharp teeth.. but they are friendlier then i expected .. guess.. have to place more effort ba.. hahaz.. but i think technology pulls us together.. at least thru chat while searching for information is quite fun and interesting.. and start to kpo abt their lives too.. hahaz..

oh well.. i m having tuesday blues.. help me.. and its only sunday.. somehow i see my monday flying away very fast on monday itself.. so forsee tuesday bluez.. hahaz. i realised it is not the amount of holidays i can have, but its the break from the things i have to complete.. i mean.. no matter how many holidays i may have, i still have to face the same problem at the end of my holiday

probably a good example will be my hamster case...

my hammie can keep running in her wheel as long as my hand is there.. will she have to keep running unless i remove my hand? or does she have to bite my finger and get out of that wheel? oh well.. my hammie is not that smart.. she runs away from her "problem" insteading of solving the problem.. but.. i m not my hammie... so i m SUPPOSE to be smarter and SUPPOSE to solve the problems i have.. and challenge them...

i emphasize.. i SUPPOSE... but i m not..
  ¶ 3:09 PM