my life through my tinted glasses
Thursday, September 23, 2004
  ~ i am getting over it.. i hope ~

Okie.. its a day after the terrible nite... and i hope i m getting over it. though i m still not realli motivated to go home.. i m unsure..

this morn.. think my mum clarified with me y they drank the soup. so called that i did not say i m gg home for dinner.. and they claimed that they did not know that i wanted to drink the soup..

misunderstanding? not sure.. but i m tired.. and i dun wan to talk abt it..

today's presentation was.. okie ba.. WX commented it was good job.. probably because we commented that his was a good job too.. 礼上往来

哇！不知道可以用华语来沟通。。。 想我的华语退步了。。 好神奇啊!!

haha.. back to english.. i think i can key so much faster.. hahahz...

okie... with one presentation down.. think we are working to a better week..

the weekend is coming.. and i m elated.. dunno y.. but i m feeling very light hearted... oh well.. haha.. back to work.. work.. work...


  5:38 PM
  ~ I hate my life ~

I started my day at 8am, wash up and went to office by 9.45am. Slogged.. and slogged.. ta bao lunch.. so that i can do something .. like reading journal articles for T and D while my colleagues are out for lunch.. went to buy choco bread at 7 -11 for dinner.. and everyone took my bread for snack.. = ( only jon bought me a bowl of kway teow. ~touched~

then start SM meeting in office. Wasnt too bad.. was efficient, and productive.. we ended ard 10pm at the office.

Reach home 11pm. Parents asked if i had my dinner. i replied no. Saw a bowl of soup on the table.. tot i can have soup for dinner.. so i say i'll just have soup..

switched on tv, watched Amazing Race 5. commercial, realised that the soup was gone.. and there isnt any food left for me. = (

i was thorough upset.. leading on for me to hate my life.. haiz..

upset becos someone in my family drank my soup though i commented that i was hungry.. i suspect is my dad..

upset becos i am so tired.. working so late everyday.. slept later then my parents.. woke up easlier than them.. but that is wad i got.

upset becos i have to earn $$ to support my family. with my dad gg on cant find a job.. i may have to increase the family allowance.. implies that i will have lesser $ for my self..

upset becos some friends took $$ from parents.. and i have to give my parents $$ instead.. at the age of 21.. when i m still studying... even my grandparents send my dad thru Uni.. and i hve to suffer this way...

this caused me to cry in the toilet.. AGAIN.. becos i dun dare to let them know that i m upset..

Wad irony..

they did not bother abt me.. whether i had my meals.. whether i m tired.. whether i m overworked..

have been surviving on red bull and coffee for the past 3 days, and many days to come.. i doubt my body can take it.. sometimes i wish i would fall sick.. and rest, with some attention..

Am i a spoilt brat, asking for attention?

my tears are not dried yet. more to flow~

BUT

I have to stop it. no time to wallow in self pity when i have a presentation tml, and lit review untouched.

can i take it? probably it is all in the mind..

  1:44 AM
Monday, September 20, 2004
  ... its a Monday already ...

oh well, i have to face reality.. it is Monday.. there will be a dreadful HR costing later on.. oh well.. sighz..

Oh well.. ivy.. be prepared.. i had not done any preparation for tml's case. i will try to do it later.. oh well.. its 1.15 already.. wonder how late is the later..

okie.. everything will come back and haunt me again. I had a week free of..

1. Marketplace (wow..that is a breather man)
2. Mother Goose..
3. cases to read..
4. places to go.. boo hoo..

i did not go out much for this week.. it is a horrible week filled with interviews.. but i m glad that our presentation will soon be over..and reports too.. and then before i know it. it will be the exams..

sighz.. after receiving the networking letter.. i felt more stressed.. i have to maintain it. or else.. sighz.. so.. i can go it man..

as Raymond mentioned..

I can do it!

As Sian always says..

it is all in the mind..

I hope i dun disappoint them.. sob sob...


  1:14 AM
a life of a NTU girl.. bored with life

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