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Saturday, September 11, 2004
  It had not been a good Saturday

Sighz.. today.. things just dun go rite.. i know partially it is my fault.. but.. sighz...

i went to work today.. and was quite bz at work.. such that i was quite tired.. hence i was looking forward to chill out at Dear's place.. probably to watch La Bi Xiao Xing or SNTC... or probably just lay back and rest.. play some computer games.. watch some tv.. or DVDs.. i expected it to be a lazy afternoon, since i had a bz week.

However, Dear was at Orchard, called me and asked if i wanted to shop or go back. I wanted to check out the Topshop top.. since i have the vouchers.. so i tot, probably we just drop by orchard's Topshop den head to Dear's house.. that was ard 1230.

However, at ard 1.2opm, i was tired. i seriously wanted to go take a rest.. however, i asked Dear to wait for me at orchard for the past hour, i cant just asked him to go home rite? he will kill me.. hence, i told him that i will be going over to orchard soon. However, he asked me if i wanted to go to the marathon clinic at Swissotel.

I thought: Since Topshop is at Suntec, the clinic will not take so long.. y not just pop by and see wad they offer..

tired.. and rushed to City Hall.. dear immediately brought me to the convention hall.. despite knowing that i had not have my lunch. i wasnt in the mood to eat.. partly becos i had a lot of things on my mind, and the clinic is not the first thing on my mind.. but nevertheless.. since the clinic was about to start.. we went ahead with the first session...

the first session was quite okie.. the speaker was quite entertaining, though i wasnt interested a bit. i was reading the teenage mag.. provided by Dear.. oh well.. and my stomach was grumbling..

I wanted to grab some food.. so after the first session i wanted to go grab some food at the food court.. but dear wanted to come along.. so off we went to have my lunch. Lunch was a hasty one.. just finish.. but i wasnt satisfied.. i dunno y... but dunno wad else to eat.. i wanted to shop ard.. walk ard.. since the third talk will be abt 4pm, and it was ard 3.20 then.. but we headed back to the convention hall straight.. to my dismay of course..

then we joined the second session halfway.. i was very bored, as non of the stuff is applicable to me. i played my hp game.. till i got bored too.. then i took out my PE notes.. i could not concentrate because the speaker's voice was disturbing.. i could not absorb.. fustrated.. i believe i wasted my time.. it was 4pm then. the second session ended.

i went off to shop on my own ard raffles city shopping centre. the third talk should end by 4.30pm. at 4.45pm, i was so happy as i was already bored walking ard, and dear had my purse. i cant purchase anything, even if i wanted to. i thought that dear will be done soon, but.. no call.. i checked my phone.. but.. neh.. no call.. i reckoned that he wasnt done.. i walked even more.. i was very tired by then.. my temperature starts to rise.. and by the time he called, it was ard 5 plus.. i was fustrated, upset, and felt that i wasted my whole afteroon.. i could have just worked or studied in the office.. Mas and company will still be there.. there will be at least 3 hours of productive work! sighz..

i lost my paitience when i saw him.. sighz.. i think i was having mood swing. i knew it..i told myself that i m having mood swing.. and i should not flare.. i should keep it under control.. but.. i just could not control any further.. sighz.. i flared.. i was angry..sighz.. i was so angry that i wanted to throw my stuff on the floor in the middle of city link, and wanted to shout at him in the middle of suntec.. i was gg crazy.. so i tot the best is to qurrantine myself.. before anything goes wrong..

sighz.. guessed dear think that i was ignoring him.. i was.. infact.. once i saw his face.. reminds me that i wasted my time.. reminds me that i was suppose to rest.. reminds me that this will be the only shopping trip i may have for the rest of the semester.. reminds me that i should have gone to Sian's chalet instead.. and reminds me that he bombed all.. because of his marathon clinic that i wasnt interested in...

oh well.. i have cooled down.. i think i m in the wrong too..because i did not keep my cool.. because i flared at him.. because i did not tell him that i needed to be qurrantined.. because i was selfish, and wanted for only myself to gain..

but.. he wasnt totally off the hook too.. he told me the talk will be 1-2 hours.. my jaw almost touch the floor liao.. and he took 3 hours.. and only skipped a little.. he sat thru all! sighz.. he promised me a quite and lazy afternoon.. but it turned out to be a tiring shopping cum marathon clinic.. sighz..

this blog helps me to analyse wad had happened.. everything builds up.. cant think properly.. was MAD.. it got me so mad. that i was holding back tears on my way back home.. that was so embarrassing.. i dunno y it hurts me so badly.. probably i recalled that it might be such a perfect afternoon, and we spolit it.. thinking of others who are actually enjoying themselves at this very moment, and i was at my rock bottom.. to think that it is the only sat that i can rest and enjoy myself.. and it turned this way.. think that he could not find a time to accompany me while he can take offs for his kayaking courses.. to think that he actually blames me for not topping up MY concession card which HE uses.. sighz.. all things come together.. i became irrational..

sighz.. there goes my saturday.. = (

  10:56 PM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
  Hi all, i am in Rach's Hall

Hi, i am in Rach's Hall bitching ard... suppose to go to our group's dinner.. but in the end.. they have something on.. so here i am.. blogging at Rach's room! hahaz..

had been some times since i blogged.. was very busy these days that i was immoblised .. lying on my bed.. too tired to move.. even to read.. cant process..

talking abt names now.. imagine.. if your husband's surname is Wu, and ur son is called Hou Dai.. issit that sad?

Now, imagine again.. your daughter's name is si wen.. and her dad's name's surname is Zhuang..

oops.. haha.. that was our constant joke.. just like Mr R = Fisherman and CT=Mother Goose.. wahahha..

okie.. the break is coming.. i m loosing my mind..

  6:39 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
  2 days without blogging..really troubled me..

Okie.. i m up and blogging.. oh well.. without an avenue to vent my anger and such is a real torture.. and to think that it only lasted 2 days! hahz..

today's a very busy day.. i m so tired.

In the morning, i had to go all the way to Bedok with PPT to interview the Matsushita pple.. oh well.. they are nice pple.. they are friendly though PPT has her reservations.. hmm.. not sure..

then looking at the time.. i have the time to go to NTUC to get 2 Mangoes for my Dear Mango Addict.. haha.. its her "birthday" Present.. haha.. oh well.. it was 1130 when i got home..

I rushed to wrap the raw mangoes.. haha.. and asked mummy to prepare my lunch.. had my lunch in a rush. then i rushed off to PE lecture..

On the way, i met Eve and Rach.. then we walked to PE lecture together.. it was a boring, but self-entertaining lecture.. hehz.. oops..

then went for SM tutorial.. it is an okie tutorial.. i always feel accomplished after tutorial..

then we had our project discussion. it was a crazy one.. sighz.. that discussion.. i think i had a communication problem. and i think that is a positive way of putting it. Oh well. i think i have a very different mindset.. as in.. my points and way of thinking just dun go well with my group mates.. sighz.. it had been very discouraging for the past discussions.. but i have to overcome this.. becos i m usually the off one.. sighz.. will try to brush up my english.. anywhere or any avenues to improve my english? any one can recommend?

Then we tried to bring out the cake when Rach went to the toilet.. hmm.. some how.. it did not work..then the nonsense continued.. and when we realised that we could not carry on, PPT brought out a small cake, and Rach was a little shock.. hahaz..

then brought out the mangoes for our Mango Addict... hahaz.. that was a cute one.. we where laughing away like mad.. =P ooops.. hahaz..

then we took some pictures and head off to Canteen 3 to have our dinner.. (oh jo tang, my jacket wasnt smelly.. haha.. but i was smelly..) Rach's treat.. then we were talking and eating at the same time. oh man.. i got indigestion.. from eating and talking and laughing at the same time..

I enjoyed myself.. I hope the Birthday Girl did! ^_^

The birthday girl is so nice to send us an e-card.. i think it is mutual.. as in.. we made her day.. she made ours... so i think it is cyclic.. hmm...

gotta start to read my stuff.. getting a headache from over-caffinated.. i expected this though.. hmmm..



  1:27 AM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
  i am able to blog again!! wow!! i am so so happy!! = )

Let me try first.. just in case..
  11:35 PM
Monday, September 06, 2004
  Sigh...

I cant blog at home last nite. I m now blogging in sch.. a lot of pple in Q.. oh.. ermm.. at least ivy is waiting for her turn.. =P

Sigh.. how? i think my com is down with a virus.. that is so discouraging.. i will have to deal with it later.. sigh.. just hope that it is not too serious.. and hope that it i can still handle it... anyone can tell me how to solve a trojan house virus.. something like trojan.startpage or something like that.. sighz... how how??

just checked my SM's Quarter results.. sigh.. we made a loss.. i am so sad.. no $$ liao.. but got quite some market share.. gotta meet up with the rest to discuss wad's our next strategy...

Gotta go do some planning for the coming week.. think i will die in piles of work... serve me well for slacking my day off yesterday.. sighz.. bao4 ying4!!

sigh... wad a day to start a week...

  1:24 PM
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