my life through my tinted glasses
:: HOT saturday afternoon :: IT IS SOOO HOT TODAY! i was perspiring ever since i woke up, even with the fan going at full steam... Did not do much today. Just hanging out at home.. watching "Da Chang Jing" with my family and eating KFC.. well, though it is not very exciting and adventurous, but i find this moment a blessing, where the whole family, just sits in front of the TV, and joke around... i find this a blessing, and should be treasured. Just last thursday, went out with Mas, Hariana, Aza, Syahrul, Wengtat and Eugenie to have dinner at Seoul Garden.. was laughing my hearts out.. though i did not eat much.. (sorta waste my money eh) but i had good company... (i learn this from Dear.. spend the money.. though you may not feel worth it.. but just take it that you are paying for the company that u will be having.. that is priceless). Like seeing Victor, Shuan and Melvin outside, but did not come in because they are not having dinner with us.. us, trying to feed them food.. etc.. After dinner, went to walk around.. went to Esplanade sit down and talk cock.. talking about the left-breast pocket joke.. talking about the uncle breakdancing.. crapish la.. I enjoyed the evening.. Thank you guys for the company.. Well, it is already 3 weeks into my new job.. so far so good.. went for course with the B & E instructors.. they are a cool bunch of pple man! Had fun going for course with them.. they are just simply farni pple.. learnt a lot of things from pple all over the organisation.. Like LOAC, AAW, Powerboating, how to play super mario, etc... Learn all the "xiao ming" jokes (ie: chinese jokes), entertained sex-content jokes (ie: why is a ship name after women... because they are always wet at the bottom... PENGZ!)... well well.. i wun say it is the best culture in the world.. but i would say.. if these things are harmless (ie: wun get anyone hurt), i am okie with it.. if i shun these remarks.. i cant adapt isnt it? ke ke, but it is farni.. learn to drink a little. Had a half-pint of hoegarden yesterday while with them.. start to enjoy beer. used to hate it.. but, a chilled beer on a hot day.. really good. of course.. not saying that alcohols are good.. but a little doesnt harm isnt it? Something i dislike a lot, is the frequency they are smoking... everytime they have a break, they will have to go for their smoking break. and when they come in, they bring along a strong stench of 2nd hand smoke! think i will just die of 2nd hand smoke though i dont smoke. i think their believe is: since i am going to die of lung cancer due to 2nd hand smoke, then might as well join them right? Pretty silly isnt it? I can adapt.. i will join, but i do have to think before i join any activity... i do yearn for company, and do hope to join in the group at times... BUT.. have to be rational at times... silly to go into smoking... so.. those who smokes, please give it up... Something i discovered during the course.. well, during the course, i have to give 2 presentations to teach something you like.. i dun have anything really passionate about.. so i chose origami... i had good critics for my presentation, and 1 of the trainers, actually encouraged me to be a trained as a trainer.. i did have that notation in me.. call it a "calling".. one day on my way home.. i was just thinking.. y not? i enjoyed the whole process.. and i enjoy sharing information with pple.. so, why not.. And the trainers did mention that i have a natural flair in presentation.. and he cant imagine, with experience and exposure, how much better i can be. I felt inspired.. suddenly, i know what i want to do in life.. to be train as a trainer.. where i am now, is good.. and will look into areas that can help me to built my credentials... Just feel good.. that i know what i want in life... And it will be good if i can train in the youth sector. my passion.. And i realised, that my foundation was built well at heartware... i used to be fierce and unfriendly, till heartware or rather, Mas thought me how to get close to pple, and how to get them to work for u.. be personal and sincere.. that really helped me.. Heartware also gave me the opportunity to speak to pple, in proper english.. with Raymond's good american english, it gives me a good foundation to begin with. Now at my workplace, the standard of spoken english is horrible.. and with my spoken english, i actually gained some respect from some of them.. just because i speak well.. and now, when pple speak in horrible, grammatical english.. i find it irritating.. It is a day-to-day thing that, if i did not immerse myself in a good environment to begin with.. i will not be able to achieve what i achieved today.. (though it is not a lot.. ) Ha ha.. these days.. i have lesser expectations.. for example.. i learn to be thankful of what i have today.. then to ask for more materialistic things.. i am thankful that i have a happy family (included extended families), all healthy and happy... i am thankful that i have Dear with me.. though he is still so far away, and did not run away with other women.. which is so easily done with some other guys.. i am thankful that i have 2 friends with me during my course.. and accompanied me to lunch.. i am thankful that these 2 friends of mine, introduced me to other friends in the course i am thankful to have a good boss.. and everyone tells me that i have a good boss... and i know i have a good boss... i am thankful to have a group of caring colleagues with me.. who are friendly and helped me adjust to the life in SAFTI i am thankful that i have a group of friends in Heartware.. who is always available for me whenever i am down.. who can come out for gatherings often.. and never fail to tickle me... i am thankful that i have a group of HR friends, that i still kept in contact with.. who always included me in their gathering.. very thankful i am thankful to have my god-sisters around.. and keeping in contact... i am thankful.. and i learn to treasure... friends out there.. start to count ur blessings before it is too late...
