Sighz...

exams is over and done with.. supposed to be happy and relieved...

well.. i m relieved for the time being... suppose to b happy..

yesterday went to treat mummy n daddy fiesta.. a bit chor.. but.. they eat till so happy.. i also very happy.. esp when mummy say she din eat jap food for 19 years.. well.. me eat like once a month.. feel so bad.. so.. let her eat.. and she is amused and happy.. i m so happy.. its a mummy day treat!

think the next one will be daddy day treat. let me think of a good venue to eat.. esp when mummy off.. then can eat together...

well.. after that we went to jp popular shopping.. haha.. daddy buy pencil case.. so cute.. wanna choose a good one.. then ask for my opinion.. that is interesting.. becos its like.. for the past 20 years.. he din ask for my opinion.. think.. he is letting loose.. probably treating me more like an adult.. sigh.. i wan to be treated as an adult.. at the same time as a kid.. life is so contradicting.. i wanted to an adult becos i wan to go on a cruise.. to go relaz.. and at the same time.. earn enough to let them enjoy life too... then i wan to be a kid becos i wan to be loved.. haha.. as if when i m an adult i m not loved. haha...

after the shopping.. went to meet cheok.. wah.. miscommunication lead us to be very far from each other though we r both in orchard.. nevertheless.. we met up and we went shopping.. that girl ah.. wan A line skirt when she is so skinny.. ai yo.. haha.. and we were stuck at DANO for an hour i think.. haha.. actually i dun mind.. becos i m not the one spending money and not the one changing non stop.. but quite tired actually.. haha... she bought something at least.. haha.. she spend over hundred bucks.. haha..

then suppose to meet iris they all for dinner.. but dunno y everyone start to pang sei each other.. i can join them later becos i m in orchard.. so long they choose a spot. i will be there... but the others also hve things to be busy with... haha.. jo tang waiting for delivery.. rach not feeling well.. PPT.. overslept..~ haha.. then left iris and Siew Chin.. oops.. i really wan to go out dinner with them one... oops..

then i met JS instead lor.. he's with LM and vincent.. well.. i dun mind, becos i now vincent.. but i dunno LM..but ok la.. we all can jus go out and talk.. went to eat at suntec..well.. actually things went quite okie. joking n nots.. but.. when they start talking abt sbssc... talk abt windsurf.. i dun hava ANYTHING to talk abt.. well.. wat can i do.. so look at JS phone lor.. see msg..well.. at least i tried to bring them back to a common topic after that.. but they always return.. wat can i do? i very sianz after that.. esp when i m so tired. then we finally left.. vincent has his friends.. so.. left me, JS and LM.. well.. i wanted to be alone.. so i suggest to go bodyshop.. but that JS went to ask LM where got bodyshop.. and we all went together.. well. JS is talking to LM all the way.. will did admit that he tried to ask me wat happen... but he asked for 2 secs.. he turned back to LM.. wah seh.. what the ..... expect me to reply him in 2 secs? (he dare to ask me what happen? and still dare to say that he tried to talk to me... heck..!) i was getting more and more irritated. i tried to keep under wraps. looking for office wear.. so was looking at window display to keep my mood down... (he dare to say i walk away from them..) he was the one who walked away from me.. pple all ard will think that they are a pair man.. wat the F*** he expect me to keep cool...

saw Diana chang.. melissa.. and other crescentians.. wanted to go up and greet.. but my mood was way off.... cant be bothered...

actually.. they talk ok.. but they talk sbssc.. wat u expect to me to say.. hey.. yah.. i know meng teck??!! i have no common topic with that.. how to come in? with my mood off and irritated when i left the restaurant.. no mood~

well.. i would expect JS to ask her to go home first.. then take a look at me.. to understand what had happened..but?? well.. i tolerated all the way to the mrt.. from suntec to MRT is a LONG walk... he also dun wan to leave her alone i guess.. wat the....H**L

i am still irritated.. becos i think he wans face more then me.. well.. he can dun meet me and go for his kayaking session.. just for his reputation and face.. and can talk to LM all the way.. and dun care abt me for his face.. wat is this?? i cannot tolerate this..

how come i did notice this 2 years ago? becos 1.5 years ago..he was is BMT and OCS.. he was not allowed to do sea sports for a year under instruction by his dad! well.. am i regretting? i dunno.. but i know i did not expect this change.. and at least that he place seasports higher than anything else... i m disappointed.. i tried to come to terms with his seasports activity.. know its his passion.. but its getting too much that i m getting seriously irritated. either he is changing too quickly.. or i m too slow in adjusting.. all i know.. i m getting irritated by sea sports.. wat the damn!

okie.. i need to cool down.. so u know my day started well... then end up like that lor.. that is y i say.. i cannot be too happy at one time.., becos i will be terribly upset on other time.. which is most prob.. the same day... saw a drama series.. the actor say he dun wan to be happy.. becos he feels that if he's too happy too often.. his happiness will be used up too quickly before he realised.. that is exactly wat i felt.. sighz...
  ¶ 1:41 PM

  woah... i finised my exams~~!! finally... !!

final day of my exams! and i went to play like mad.. like.. wat cheok describe.. taste freedom!!

after my paper... Jo tang and i went to JP to shop.. started at This fashion and bought one set.. yeh.. actually i wanted to get from either U2 or G2000.. however.. now think think ah.. buy so expensive for what? esp when i have no money now?? scarely.. i go to the office.. then the pple there wear casual how?? wun i be the extra one out? so.. after advice from Iris and my mum.. i decide not to shop too much for now... mayb get a pair of court shoes for NPCC and one pair of black heels and one more skirt.. then i think i should be quite done with my shopping...!! now i think my budget can reduce to 100 bucks for all my shopping~

then after buying the set.. i went for dinner with dear and caught dawn of the dead.. dear was so tired.. as he had exercise the day before and did not slp last nite.. but he went to watch the show with me still ... thanks dear! touched.. ~~ haha.. then dawn of the dead ah.. interesting show.. but i think the storyline a bit the usual la.. about a town swamped with zombies.. then a few of them got together and fight the zombies.. then bond together at the same time.. and fight.. yeh.. like any virus or monster show.. well.. at least the action din disappoint me.. haha.. i hid behind the jacket most of the time though...

then come home.. rest a while.. tok to dear.. then.. wah.. start to test my clothes.. becos gg out tml to hunt for more clothes ma.. then must see what i have.. and wat i dun have ma.. then wun over buy ma.. wah.. test here and there.. realised that i have 3 sets to go with first.. think i just hve to buy one more skirt to go with all my other clothes can liao.. becos i dun think i look gd in pants.. look too power and steady.. later give pple wrong impression.. give me all the chim chim things to do then jialat...haha..

so my buying list for now is:
1. A skirt
2. A pair of court shoes
3. A pair of black heels (optional)
4. A hand bag

all below 100 bucks is my budget

then after that washed my cage like mad.. very tired now man.. but very happy becos i think my hammie is at a better cage.. haha.. love my hammie... wish her well...

okie.. i think today is too long a blog.. have to stop somewhere.. and i think it is here.. still need to do research and tml is another long long day.. whew.. i tink life after exams will be so much busier...!!

YH and pple at SIM.. jia you oh! exams will be over soon...!!


  ¶ 1:11 AM

  sighzzzzzzzzz.. how come in got one more paper.. that i dunno how to prepare for.. very jia lat eh~~

the paper very SICKENING~~!!

now i can still watch tv.. when i have 5 more chapters to go.. how?? oops...

help me~~.. but how.. keke.. give me the exam question.. haha...

tml i will be free... free from books.. bleachz.. then the start of dreadful PA... how encouraging... sighaz...
  ¶ 10:23 PM

  Ah.. just finish one paper.. i feel like i finished all my papers.. oh dear~

well.. now counting down to 24 hours to my next paper.. dunno how to study for it.. now can only try my best.. well well...

have to go take a rest.. then go and study liao.. or tml paper sure gone..

tata~  ¶ 1:10 PM

  Sighz.. less than 12 hrs to my 331 paper... and i m more sianz then ever..

just now hammie ate one big piece of biscuit.. all put into her mouth.. so big piece.. scared stuck at her pouch.. so observe her... realised she cannot retrieve the biscuit from her mouth.. like got prob.. so i helped her to take out.. ai yoh.. i saw her food pouch flesh!! yucks~ so er xin

sighz.. by 1030 i should hit back for my final revision.. so i have 20 mins to revise my work.. SIANZ...

but i will be out of this by another 48 hours~~

  ¶ 10:04 PM

  Sighz..

another 1.5 day before my next paper.. no feelings for it.. agar agar study for it.. but dunno if the knowledge i memorised got use.. haiz...

but at least today.. i should think that my hormones should balance a bit liao ba.. hahaz.. or else i will be irritated today AGAIN...

okie la.. i should gambatteh for my next paper.. though my mind kept wondering to the HRC BBQ and my birthday party.. keke.. and shopping for new clothes.. as in.. what type of clothes to buy la.. i very objective in buying things one.. or at least i try to... just make a list of what to buy.. and go and buy.. budget 200 bucks? thinking of getting a business suit.. jia lat.. dun think enough.. hmph..

  ¶ 10:29 PM

  sighz... another day.. just wasted like that..

dunno y i cannot concentrate on my work.. my memorising.. the last few seminars i just browsed thru the first time.. usu i will read up the chapters.. think today cannot make it liao.. now i see book i wan to burn... i see notes i wan to tear.. how?? think i m deteriorating... hmph...

having headache for the whole morning.. i think its migraine.. becos i feel like throwing up too and its only on one side of my head.. the back of it.. sianz.. cannot memorise at all.. becos once i turn my eyes i will be in pain.. so i memorise with my eyes closed.. n.. ultimately.. i fell alsp.. dumb~~

ok.. got to go back to my books.. suppose to memorise another 4 more seminars becos i can hit the sack.. sianz rite?? gambatteh...~~ 4 more days to the end of exams..

last time after exams i look forward to working with HW... but now.. i dun look forward to my internship.. sianz... sianz..

okie la.. better start studying before its too late.. i calculated.. i will study till 6am.. hmm.. dunno if i can take it till that early.. hmph..   ¶ 10:10 PM