Last day at PA!

Sighz.. i dunno whether i shld be happy, sad.. or wad.. quite happy to leave.. not requiring me to wake up so early.. and in a sleepy mood.. butz.. a little attach to this place.. so a little sad laz.. so... i shall conclude that i m netural.. (postive mood and negative mood balance out.. ) hahaz

Yesterday.. was quite upset with someone.. becos she asked me to lie. i hate to lie.. so i did not. just twist my facts ard.. and i did not talk to her much at all... guess she found out that something was wrong.. becos she also din talk to me... well.. how to tell her to change? prob all the comments of her is true.. just that i m deceived by her.. sighz.. sad ah...

its sat tml.. and dear will not be free.. so i can go to my seminar.. temple.. ikea.. and sorts to source for my things.. think i will pack myself to the brim tml.. wah.. i m so the very sleepy.. slept at 2am.. woke up at 615am.. eyes feel so puffy...

okie la.. got to do other stuff liao.. tata~
  ¶ 8:37 AM

  i am blogging excessively..

a song by ou de yang... 孤单北半球

i song i think i would rem if Dear goes to aus...

作词:Benny.C　作曲:方文良　编曲:方文良+梁介洋

用我的晚安陪你　吃早餐 记得把想念　存进扑满
我　望着满天星在闪
听牛郎对织女说要勇敢

别怕我们在地球的两端 看我的问候　骑着魔毯
飞　用光速飞到　你面前
要你能看到十字星有北极星作伴

少了我的手臂当枕头　你习不习惯
你的望远镜望不到我北半球的孤单
太平洋的潮水跟着地球来回旋转
我会耐心地等　随时欢迎你靠岸

少了我的怀抱当暖炉　你习不习惯
E给你照片看不到我北半球的孤单
世界再大两颗真心就能　互相取暖
想念不会偷懒　我的梦通通给你保管

  ¶ 9:58 AM

  So bored

with marce not ard.. me covering recep the whole day.. think i can relax and do nothing...

well.. gave a lot of tot abt my future.. sigh... cant help thinking abt it.. dear keep mentioning abt gg to australia to study.. know it is his dreams.. know it is for his future.. also for his ego (he says to match me, being an undergraduate.. and he a poly grad..) well... there should not be a reason not to let him go...

but.. as all human nature.. i m selfish.. i m worried that when i m alone.. no one to be there for me.. i will be lonely.. stuck at home on a saturday.. and start thinking of the days we are together on saturdays... wad if he finds someone there and i m left in singapore waiting in vain.. i m selfish.. do i have such little faith in dear...

but.. i have to think of his situation too.. wad if he is lonely.. possibility higher than mine.. alone in a foreign land.. the urge to seek companionship is higher.. if he really gets another gf there in a foreign land.. i wun be too amaze.. its only human nature..

well.. bottom line is that.. i have to let him go.. for the sake of his career.. and wad's not.. sighz.. i have to learn to let go...

well.. to think of it.. if he's going in feb 05, and i graduating in jul 05.. (provided all goes smoothly..) i may be able to visit him in jul 05 as a graduation tour.. i know i will be there alone.. while he attends class or wads not.. but i can be there writing my resume.. improving them... wadsoever.. then i come back to start work.. and he comes back for holiday in dec.. we will just miss each other for a few months.. take it that he is away for exercise lor.. sighz.. then come 06.. prob den i would save enough money to visit him again... once in may and once in sept? when he's having his exams.. to encourage him.. wellz.. then by feb 07 he shld be back...

you may think.. wah.. think so far for wad.. well.. just being practical.. such things... have to think through... before we make any mistakes.. oh well... = | since he's so determined to go.. i cant do anything.. but to support him..support him now better then he drags on and on.. without any progress.. and decides to leave when i m older.. @ age 28++... rite?

this makes me so envious of those couples who both make it into uni.. and well.. live happily ever after...
  ¶ 9:13 AM

  Happie Birthday IRIS!!

It is Iris's birthday today!! happie birthday!! we went out to have dinner.. which is suppose to be a gathering cum birthday party. All of us know about it.. other than Iris...

haha.. yesterday was a laughter filled nite.. had dinner at Fish & Co. (but i din.. =P) and then we proceed to esplanade while joanne tang and siew chin went to buy the ice-cream cake... that joanne tang ah.. very good at smoking sia.. i almost din catch it.. all was just too smooth.. haha

wah.. reach there.. then smoke iris... becos she started to suspect that something wasnt rite.. haha.. well.. manage to give her a surprise.. and as usual.. they start to play with the cream on the cake.. (Luckily no the whole cake sia...) we are like 7 crazy girls.. at the esplanade.. doing monkey business.. haha.. but it was fun.. i hope all of us had fun...

got iris a watch.. well.. hope she likes it.. hmm.. the watch is really quite pretty... hmmm.. hahah..but i m satisfied with my watch.. haha...=P

well... last 3.5 days at work.. whether i will miss the place or not.. i will.. for a while.. miss pple like marcella.. and the rest of the IA students.. prob some pple in the HR department.. but not all.. basically the pple here are nice.. but some pple are real nasty.. and i definately dun miss them!! the environment here.. is okie. i like the hours.. waking up early and starting early.. being able to make full use of my day.. hahaz.. like the pple.. but dun like the WORKING environment.. its like the pple.. maybe b nice acquiantance.. but may not be friends.. sighz.. so ironic rite?..

the HR dept.. 3/5 not here.. all diaharrohea... (dunno how to spell..) woah.. and i will be stuck down here doing reception then.. hmmm...... luckily today tues.. no mails.. no stockboard.. nothing very important... (i hope.. fingers' crossed...)

  ¶ 8:29 AM

  Last 5 days @ PA and counting down!!

yeh.. finally.. finally.. last 5 days.. whew.. counting down every minute.. =)

Well.. saturday.. met a mad woman in the MRT. She din seem to be able to control herself. She walks in circles.. screams at the public.. changes seats every 2 mintues.. wah.. she is scary.. so much so that the SMRT officers had to come and look for her..

there is something that tug my sympathy strings. Although she seemed like a nut case to all of us.. she is aware of the surroundings. She is able to tell the SMRT officers that she is going to IMH, at AMK, looking for Dr Weng. She also knows that she needs her medication, and going to IMH to collect it. She told the officers that she has a daughter alone at home, and requested someone to look after her. She knows that the SMRT officers will bring her to the police station, and beg them not to bring her there becos its a waste of time.. i was truly amazed at her conciousness..

i tried to keep myself busy at things.. so i wasnt look at her. There was a guy who stared at her, i think, and she screamed at him. Asking him not to stare at her. Well.. i would like to applaud! these guys only kay poh and stare at her. as if things will be better if they stared deep down at her.. classifying her as a nut case.. i think she was embarrased.. that was why she screamed at him.. it was an awkward scene... very attention seeking.. but.. sighz.. humans being humans.. they are curious..sighz.. wada do?

okie la.. its almost time for me to rtn to the the monsters' den upstairs..haha..

oh yeh.. confiscated Bryan's cigarettes. forcing him to quit smoking. haha.. hope i dun forget and brings it back to home! my parents will kill me!! for doing a good deed.. hmmm....

tata~  ¶ 8:28 AM