Oh well.. i find Singapore Idol a disappointment! I dun wish to see Olinda get thru! Wish to wipe the smirk off her face! I mean.. if she is more humble.. and not get so ecstatic once the judges praised her.. probably i will get to "like" her singing.. find her voice too deep.. not feminine.. but again.. that is probably her feng1 fan4.. hmph! tot she looks nice in a denim skirt though.. haha

I din like the other girl too.. the J one.. becos dun like her feng1 fan4.. think too western.. i am more chinese / eastern song listener.. oh well.. i guess singapore idol.. you have to cater to your audience..

David yeo is that best! oh well.. he's very singaporean.. as in.. i can hear his shi2 li4 when he sings.. think he connects... hmm..i hope to see pple like stephanie sun, jj lim, tanya, and kit chan.. oh well.. at least they are straight and tu sheng tu zhang singaporeans.. they can connect with us... and make us pround..

haha.. discussing with rach abt these things.. she disagrees twith me though.. haha.. but never mind.. we shall see who gets across! hahaa..

okie.. i think i can hardly keep my eyes open.. i got lots of things to do.. but i think i cannot sustain opening my eyes! hahaz

okie.. nitez pple.. wish me luck for a basic theory test which i had not study yet! haha.. nitez

Oh well, i am in the free access lab.. decided to blog a while before i leave for home..

Sigh.. boss gave an email again.. i start to feel my incompetence again.. sighz.. it is like.. whenever i start to focus on school, i neglect work.. and when i focus too much on work.. i neglect school.. sighz.. it is a opportunity cost thing man.. sighz.. sighz.. sighz..

and the increase in the frequency of staying back school is so much that i stayed back 3 times this week! oh my.. but i think i prefer this way as i think i can concentrate more in school then to work at home.. there are so many distractors at home.. there is the MSN, there is the phone, there is the tv, there is the bed... and such.. sighz.. think school helps me to concentrate..

how am i going to deal with my incompetency? sighz.. i seriously have no idea. i have only 24 hrs per day. i am already trying to cut down time slp-ing.. but that is not good in the long-run.. sighz.. (wow. that is my second economics term in this blog!)

does boss read my blog? haha.. sometimes i wonder.. haha.. but. well.. he's more considerate as compared to other bosses i think.. but.. everyone thinks that their job are more important.. so, wad i m suppose to do? well.. who can offer to teach me time management? = S

oh well.. sometimes also wonder if dear reads my blog.. i blog so much.. but he doesnt read.. how is he gg to know more about me? sighz. think i m delirious.. i dunno wad i m talking about...

the migraine is coming.. can feel it.. expected it becos i drank 2 cups of coffee and 1 cup of tea today.. but well.. its a good trade-off, as i managed to complete some effective HR costing today.. but.. sighz.. it is coming..

gotta go.. go home, shower, have my dinner, and start work again.. cya again...

I am in school now. in CITs lab.. wow.. its so quiet.. i can hear my keyboard click!

I am pleasantly glad that my blog yesterday went thru... oh well. that is a better start to a thursday..

now waiting for Jia Sian and Shuzhen to arrive.. doing SM and maybe some FYP too. but it is so early.. i think i have yet to be awake..

okie.. they are here.. tata~

Sigh.. y am i so problematic? Having rashes on my leg.. it was on my shin just now.. now.. i think it is moving to my arm.. sighz.. wad luck..

Someone has to constantly remind me that i have a basic theory test on fri! sigh. i kept forgetting it.. and considering that the week passed by so fast that i hardly had any time to sit down and study.. i seriously dun wish to waste my 6 bucks man..

okie.. i need MOTIVATION...

I am working on HW stuff from morn 10am till ard 6pm. i was quite motivated, and was moving quite ahead.. but at ard 7pm, i lost my momentum.. i lost control.. and went back to my bad habits of watching tv. I think watching tv is a waste of time.. but i cant help it.. well.. mediacorp and mediaworks are fighting too hard.. so hard that they tried to outwit each other with better shows.. and tempt me.. BLAME THEM..

OKIE.. Motivation, motivation, motivation...... where to get it? Job statisfaction? NOPE.. cheryl tay and ahad dun motivate me.. and forget abt statisfaction.. ha!

oh well.. shall not dwell upon it..shall spend my time preparing for a fri presentation and do my readings.. sighz.. y do the readings seem endless? esp for FYP.. sighz.. i m worried that i m moving so much slower then everyone else.. WORRIED!

okie. i m treading water now.. to prevent myself from drowning.... however, i cant continue doing it as i do not have the stamina.. i have to learn to swim.. to move away from the problematic area.. and swim to safety.. sigh..

I WAN TO MOVE... MOVE TO SOMEWHERE I THINK IS SAFE..

BUT.. who knows where is the safest place? sighz..