:: October is coming!! ::

did anyone realised that here are 2 public holidays in october?? There is deepavali on 21 oct and hari raya puasa on 24 oct..

and.. that is my best opportunity to go for a vacation!! yeah!

Dear and i decided to go HK.. and it is promised that he will sponsor this trip! and i shall sponsor the Malacca trip via coach.. yeah! good deal! = )

well.. though i was lamenting that October is soo far away.. it is minimally 3 months away..

but.. i was just thinking again.. i should be bz enough in Aug and Sept to keep me mentally occupied till beginning of Oct!

that seems good.. and oct seems to be my lull period as well.. all adds up! just nice.. = )

hope i can last till then... Oct still looks far..

But, have to be positive in life, isnt it? = )  ¶ 1:00 PM

  :: On my second week of course ::

ha ha.. my title is a little ambiguous eh.. watever.. learn too many things about "ambiguity" till i am about to give up..

I gave up my afternoon snack break to search for some lyrics online. And i managed to search for the lyrics of "Superwoman" by 曹格.

i listen to this song for sooo many times, and only today, i knew how touching the lyrics is.
This is part of the lyrics:

early in the morning,
i put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡但我　不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了你　爱吃的东西
这次换我等你被咖啡　的香味叫醒

想要找回每天早晨　对我微笑著的你
还能够　做些什麼代替我的歉意
总是望著我　小心翼翼顺著我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然　让你精疲力尽

you were my superwoman
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
but i am only human
我怎麼不懂你多寂寞 残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 ooh—babe---

you fought your way through the rush hour
try to make it home just for me
月光下静静靠著彼此　只求夜长一点
有多久没有好好看你　只是认定了我
无论在什麼时候回头　都有你的笑容
是我忽略了你也会有　想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最後一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待　不要真的弃权

(---baby)是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心裏唯一的superwoman没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成　灰

if you feel it in your heart and you understand me.
stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me.

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i am able to relate to this immediately.

"而我竟然理所当然　让你精疲力尽 "
Sometimes. we just take things for granted, isnt it? and we are unaware that the other party is too tired giving..

you were my superwoman
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
but i am only human
我怎麼不懂你多寂寞 残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 ooh—babe---
The lyrics is meaningful as well... sometimes, you just dunno there is someone there, providing everything for you.. and take things for granted.. you thought you are ONLY HUMAN... but you forget that she is also human, who may be lonely, and needs your understanding.. we tend to make these mistakes.. and the truth and pain only comes, when you realise that you are almost losing her..

"是我忽略了你也会有　想要哭的感觉 没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿 "
Sometimes, i found that i try to hard my feelings so much, that i also neglected the need to cry.. sometimes, there is no need to be strong all the time, and it is ok to let it off, and just cry... sometimes, as part of the "woman" life, we tend to just give and give.. but.. there is nothing that you can give forever, you have to receive it, so that you can recuperate...

After re-reading the lyrics, i realise, this song, is not only for your other partner in life, such as wife or GF, but dont you agree that it is also applicable to your mum?

She provides all for you, makes breakfast for you, or minimally, ensure you have breakfast ready before you go to work.. rush home to make dinner for the family.. she takes care of the family, like a superwoman..

But do you noticed that she is giving that much? only when she is too tired, when she is falling sick.. when there are possibility that you will be losing her soon.. then you start to take notice of how much she gives, and start apprecating the things she provided for.

Hmm.. food for thought.. though i think this song is meant for lovers, but i find it specially applicable to my mum.. (at least)...  ¶ 12:30 PM

  :: very free ::

Nope i am not on leave, yes it is 9.30am, yes it is a friday... i am just "ON COURSE".. better still, this time round, they provide laptops on individual tables with internet connection.. cool?

The rest are just having breakfast that is provided outside.. and class will onli start at 9.50? i am still considered early even though i arrived onli at 915.. ke ke..

well, have always wanted to blog abt my belated birthday "surprises"...

M just msg me at 0004 on 11 Jul wishing me a happy birthday.. was just joking with her if she did it delibrately or accidentally (she wanted to sms me at 1159 on 10 jul) ha ha.. then was just lamenting that the rest did not even bother to sms..

then the next morn.. somehow, our Ms CO suddenly sms me a belated birthday msg! and ask me if i wan to go birthday shopping with her.. pengs! ask me to buy my own present! Mr SK too.. asking me to be good? ha ha.. cute! and what is most interesting, is A called me.. during his office hours.. *HAHA* and sang me a belated birthday song (well, he claims he sang it with a belated birthday, rather then jsut birthday.. i was just too busy laughing that i couldnt hear properly)..

well.. thanks to all for ur msg and song... it did really make my 23rd birthday more complete! ha haz..

well, since i mentioned abt birthday song, i have to specially mention that my dear bf is the FIRST one to sing me a birthday song.. on the 10th! even before my family.. kudos to him.. ke ke..

anyway.. i am very free on saturday.. this coming one.. that is tml.. anyone has good programmes to share? JIO ME!

till then~

  ¶ 9:38 AM

  :: An unique weekend ::

It was such a unique weekend.. enjoyed myself thoroughly...

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Saturday 080706

It was our Ex Ubin trip. Though the turn out was lesser then expected.. onli the 6 of us turned up for the excursion.. but it is still as memorable...

We were all late, except for V and CC. They were there the earliest, with CC buying 2 loaves of raisin bread.. with the kind thought that we will be hungry during the trip, and we may want to hve it. (but onli W had it.. the rest was fed to the fishes.. in a pond.. hmmm.. though CO did bite a piece.. ) i arrived slightly later, then came S and CO. W was the last to arrive, and was sought to taking a cab to changi and meet us there instead..

I thought i was dead, crammed in between 2 couples.. argh.. but.. well.. it din turn out ot be too bad.. though i did miss dear throughout the trip.. possible scenes of us cycling together passed me by most of the time.. well.. its okie.. we will have more trips together...

cycling all round ubin wasnt easy.. there were slopes ALL around.. and of course.. CO was complaining throughout.. (expected) but we all enjoyed the down slope.. there were times where i couldnt make it at all, and has to push my bike all the way up the slope.. but V will always be at the back, ensuring that all of us are doing ok.

Actually, i was pretty impressed by V's gestures. Though it is CO who is always at the back and not CC, but.. he was at the back most of the time, to ensure that no one drop out, and was left behind. That is something my dear cant do.. and has to be reminded.. ha ha.. i am very impressed by his maturity.. CC is blessed.. ha ha..

Well, we stop by many places, most temples.. and some nice scenery of the quarry.. nice to just sit there and rest and enjoy the scenery..

It ended by ard 5pm plus.. then we went off to the new Newton Circles for dinner..

Went home with tired legs.. soo tired that i fell aslp almost immediately..

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Sunday 090706

Woke up late, after a late night of soccer.. Dint catch all, snippets here and there..

had breakfast, and we headed down to queensway shopping centre.. well, i thought there will not be anyone.. but queensway was packed with pple.. i was stunned!

I bought a pair of running shoes, and a jacket.. and my brother bought a t-shirt.. wow.. though it is just 3 items.. we took ard.. 3 hours to get it all done... Well, i have to applaud my brother to have patience to shop with me.. ha ha.. it took quite some time to buy my shoes and jacket.. and he din complain! wow.. my brother is a SNAG man..

get to my granddad's place.. and my grandfather was bored.. becos my uncles were not there to play with him.. so, the younger generation was deployed instead.. so, me, my brother and my cousin was playing with my grandfather.. it took us 4 hours! Longer then the previous time i played with A, S and C. ha ha.. my grandad was just tooo cautious.. or maybe he can read tiles better then us! We may be just ignorant! He is very observant.. he seems to know which card you want, and he will not release the card! Interested game! and it ended at ard 12.30am! ha ha.. sooo late..

went home.. well, it is into the 10th already.. so my family was there to wait for us to be back to blow my cake! So sweet.. my mum and youngest bro waited for us to be back.. it was ard 1am plus by then..

watched soccer.. on and off.. sometimes when it is interesting, will sit up and watch.. and after a while, just dozed off.. too bad France lost.. and sad ending for Zidane.. haiz.. France players look so upset.. haiz.. my heart goes out to them..

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Monday 100783

The day is here.. many of my friends wished me birthday greetings...

Vincent was one of the first.. YX too.. My insurance agent (maybe he wants more business from me.. ha ha).. my god-sis... Uma.. WB.. SJ and Chiam.. Even my ex-Boss remembers!! ha ha.. that is just so nice. Though there werent a lot of pple wishing me ... but.. i am glad that there are at least some pple who remembers..

At ard 10am plus.. i received a phone call stating that there is something for me.. and asked me which room in NIE i was in.. as i was still in class, i was unable to ask in details, but just give the room number and block.. after that i became suspicious.. i was thinking if dear will send me flowers.. and i din really wan the whole class to "wow" at me when i receive the flowers.. so i called back and enquired what was the item.. (and they introduced themselves as "courier services") well, they mentioned that their driver has not received the item, and is not sure what the item is.. stating that they are just the delivery centre.. or something.. then.. when i asked who was the sender.. they apparently managed to skip the question as well.. hmm.. then it set me off thinking if it is still flowers, or is it just something else...

i wasnt paying attention in class at all.. everytime someone opens the door, i will look out, and was very distracted throughout the whole day.. well, class ended at 1600 hrs.. and the "thing" is still not here yet.. so i guess, better call and get them to send home.. becos i dun wan to wait in school.. so.. called and get them to send to my house instead..

At ard 5pm.. they send it to my place.. and "WALA" it is a bouquet of flowers.. 25 of yellow roses.. (dear says he send yellow roses becos he send red roses before.. hmm.. i wonder if there are any meaning to the colour of the flowers.. but i couldnt care less..) was very touched.. emotional when i recieved it.. it was a pleasant surprise..

Noticed that on the remarks section of the delivery order, was.. "NIE. PLS DO NOT REVEAL ITEM & SENDER, AND TRY TO GO BY 4PM. RECIPIENT IS ON COURSE. PLS CALL JOANNE." then i understand.. .. ha ha.. it is a real pleasant surprise! thank you dear!

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well.. thought it is not an exciting birthday.. but.. i guess.. the effort counts.. dear couldnt be with me.. but he send flowers.. my family waited for me to blow the birthday cake.. friends send in blessings.. well.. just reminds me that i still have friends and pple who loves me.. that counts..

I did not set any expectations for my birthday.. i just spend the rest of the day at home.. well.. birthday comes and goes.. i shouldnt set such high expectations that will end me with me upset instead.. right?

For now, i am a happy ger. Thank you everyone!! = )

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There is one thing to celebrate for.. It has been a year since dear is overseas. 1 year and 1 day already.. well.. half the battle is fought and won.. i hope we wil continue to fight togther for the other half of the battle.. another 12 - 14 more months to go, before he comes back for good..

And maybe 4 more months before we see each other again.. maybe during October.. the peak holiday period.. hope he can come back.. or i can go over.. or we can go somewhere together..

till then~  ¶ 10:30 PM

  :: World Cup FEVA ::

Well, it is definately the World Cup Fever... thinking of catching the Germany vs Italy match later.. home i can wake up in time man..

Watching soccer with a group of friends who dare to make noise kind is fun.. when all shout "goal!!" together, and sigh in disappointment together.. when all says that the referee KAYU ah.. and when there's analytical explanation of the teams' tactic.. it is quite fun..

playing mahjong after an exciting soccer match is even more fun.. ha ha.. playing with 2 slow beginners.. we almost fell aslp.. ha ha.. but.. i did won some more.. just $7.. well.. it pays off the drinks i paid earlier.. ha ha

when i say slow... it is reallllyyy sssllloooww... like 5 mins to decide which card to throw.. or.. throw the wrong card.. and make lots of noise so that we can trace back our moves.. and i have to pay becos we trace back our moves.. argh.. ha ha.. but it was so farni then.. think it is still farni when recalling it..

but after the morning mahjong, i slept through the weekend. feeling so tired.. but.. i still had fun... lets have another round this friday! before we go Ubin! ha haz

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well.. work is starting to pick up in office.. have quite somethings to do.. that is GOOD! my previous organisation trained me to be a workaholic sia.. ha haz.. well.. i am so glad that i have things to do.. that i am making myself useful..

and as i am getting busier.. i have to go for a 2 weeks or rather, 10 days course.. haiz.. and right smack before a course i am organsing.. now.. have to think of how to cope with both.. haiz.. SAFTI is not like a commercial building in Shenton Way.. if it is so convenient, it will be great! BUT.. it requires quite a distance in.. and if i wish to return after course.. it will be so inconvenient.. need to have a car in order to do things more efficiently.. now considering if i should go to camp early.. before course, to clean up some stuff.. so that i can go for course peacefully.. or i should go back after course.. well, consequences being: 1. no transport in.. even if i take a cab in, they may not wan to bring me in becos it is sooo troublesome to change a pass... 2. if i come in late.. there is no transport out.. ARGH.. all boils down to transport.. haiz.. sooo troublesome.. 3. i will be alone in office.. err.. i think i prefer the morning.. ha haz..

well, though i am getting busier.. but time pass faster.. and there is something to look forward to.. = ) so i am not complaining!

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think i better rest so that i can catch the match! = )  ¶ 9:58 PM

  :: Blank ::

Nothing's on my mind.. Just nothing.. hmmm..

Well.. life is pretty the same... still going for courses... but now are better course and they are relevant to my work.. for now.. i feel i am more or less equipped with the skills to start working (oh yah.. though i started work 1.5 months ago, i havent really started working.. ha ha.. contradicting eh.. ) well.. i am raring to go.. before my engines run for too long, and start to get bored with work..

hmm.. nothing serious to blog on.. so these are all random thoughts..

thoughts on how should i spend my weekends more effectively.. well.. these few weekends have been staying at home.. watching tv... drama serials.. anime.. movies.. anything to do with the tv.. feeling like a couch potato.. getting fat.. so i thought i shld get on and do some exercise.. like.. swimming, jogging and cycling.. i started with swimming.. average of 35 laps per swim.. after swimming is shiok man.. go home and slp immediately.. hahaz. well.. looking forward to start with jogging.. probably by the end of this week.. when my friend help me to redeem a pair of running shoes from e-mart.. probably i will start jogging then.. for cycling.. it is a little tough, as i do not have a bike to start with. was thinking of getting dear's one, but his family is using it.. so.. well.. cant really take from pple's house just like that right? so.. maybe i can start with biathalon.. and trithalon can wait. ha haz.. talking big eh..

Thoughts on when i can visit dear again in taiwan... a big question mark.. as i dunno how available i am.. i dunno when are my peak (actually i do.. and it seems forever for now.. with 3 guys ORD-ing.. and the 3 officers in my branch take on duties for a branch of 6) .. so i dunno when i can go over.. pretty sad isnt it? hmmm.. life alone isnt easy.. requires lots of mental strength. i always believe, that with mutual trust and mutual understanding.. and lots of putting-urself-in-his-shoes scenario helps.. sometimes we just see things from our perspective.. when we actually start to empathsize with the other party... there will be less self-pity.. i hope i can stand by this principle as long as i can.. humans being humans.. they are just selfish isnt it? Needs lots of effort to be less selfish, and start thinking of other pple's needs...

Thoughts on... my birthday.. ha haz.. pretty self-centred eh.. well.. just curious.. what will happened? it is my second birthday, alone without dear with me.. and there will be one more.. in 2007. what will happened? will it be just another day in the office.. doing my work.. going home.. and slp.. just another day.. shall not think and dwell too much into it.. trying to force that thought out... come to think of it, expecting that day to pass like any other normal day.. will be good.. set ur expectation low, and everything will come as a surprise..

thoughts on.. why did i spend $19.00 to watch Over The Hedge with my brother.. after much talk with my friends and saying it is a good show.. i decided to spend the money to watch with my brother today.. but to find it.. okie.. so-so.. but i would say it is terrific show to teach young children.. what is trust.. what is friendship.. what is selfishness.. what is loyalty.. what is wrong.. and what is right.. lots of things to learn.. probably it will be good for presentation.. to highlight a specific point... well.. i agree that $19.00 is a little steep.. but in exchange for time spend with my brother.. and also.. to think that he doesnt have much opportunity to watch movies.. guess it is just for me to bring him there...

thoughts on.. why didnt i go catch soccer with the other guys.. it is an ENGLAND match! haiz.. but bad timing.. no one, other then my brother is at home.. i can just imagine him alone at home.. on a Sunday.. 1 day before school reopens.. pretty sad isnt it.. i can just start to feel what a empty home is like.. it just takes me 1 night to feel it. It was a thursday night.. My elder bro is in his unit.. my youngest bro has a school camp.. my dad went for his chi gong lesson and my mum was working. it was just me at home.. the house was sooo quite.. i was pretty lost, and it din help that i reach home by 5pm as my course ended early.. wanted to jog, but no jogging shoes... wanted to swim. but pretty lazy with the pool so far away.. so.. ended up slping.. it was then, i realise.. loneliness can be pretty scary isnt it.. if dear is still in singapore then, probably i wun be stuck at home.. but.. the fact is.. he is not... yeah.. he is not.. have to live with that fact..

thoughts on.. whether dear is happy over there... sometimes i think being able to work overseas for 2 years.. and in ROC.. is pretty interesting.. if i was given the chance to do that, i will grab the opportunity immediately.. so i dun really take to heart that dear just left for 2 years like that.. it took me some time to see from that perspective.. took me lots of effort to force myself from thinking in that direction.. if not, i would just go into blaming mode.. and start questioning.. why did he just leave me like that.. well.. i have to remind myself most of the time that.. if i am given the same chance, what will i do? and most likely.. my answer will be to go, definately.. hence.. i concluded that.. if he is happy.. i will be happy for him too.. if i threaten to break up, just becos he is going overseas.. he may stay.. but.. he wun be happy.. isnt it? so, it is better for me to let him go.. experience what he wants to experience.. and if he wants to come back.. he will come back... so that, in years to come.. he wun lament that he actually gave away the chance of working overseas when he is given one... i will feel worse that way...

thoughts on.. marriage.. ha ha.. scary isnt it? my dad's cousin's daughter is getting married.. they came over to pass my parents the invitation card earlier this morning.. ha ha.. start to think.. is it the time where all my friends will start to get married soon? Well.. we have a mutual friend, planning to get married next year.. pple ard me are starting to plan their future.. leading me to think that.. should is start thinking of my future too? My dad is starting to think of my future for me.. goodness! thinking that i shld get my masters now.. so that.. when dear is overseas for 1 more year.. i wun be wasting my time.. and by the time i finish my MBA.. i would be in time for marriage.. ha ha ha.. great plan i would say.. just that.. i dun have the qualifications to.. MBA requires min. 2 years of working experience before i can even enrol.. guess my dad is too eager.. dear's parents are also thinking of the number of tables we need.. ha ha ha.. that was just a joke la.. i mean.. they just brought it up in a joking manner.. but the fact is: they are thinking! and the joke is: everyone is thinking.. but not US.. funny isnt it? haiz..

Thoughts on.. what do i want to address the commander on commander's parade.. all new comers will have to be introduced to the school.. he specifically asked for a few questions. 1. self introduction. 2. previous unit and appointment and what did u learn there.. 3. what do you wish to introduce to the school. 4. what do u wish to contribute / gain from the experience here.. well well.. i dunno how to answer question 2 itself.. it is on friday.. so i better think hard..

haiz.. wow.. that is a lot of thots isnt it? i tot i have nothing to talk abt.. ha haz..  ¶ 10:02 PM

  :: HOT saturday afternoon ::

IT IS SOOO HOT TODAY! i was perspiring ever since i woke up, even with the fan going at full steam...

Did not do much today. Just hanging out at home.. watching "Da Chang Jing" with my family and eating KFC.. well, though it is not very exciting and adventurous, but i find this moment a blessing, where the whole family, just sits in front of the TV, and joke around... i find this a blessing, and should be treasured.

Just last thursday, went out with Mas, Hariana, Aza, Syahrul, Wengtat and Eugenie to have dinner at Seoul Garden.. was laughing my hearts out.. though i did not eat much.. (sorta waste my money eh) but i had good company... (i learn this from Dear.. spend the money.. though you may not feel worth it.. but just take it that you are paying for the company that u will be having.. that is priceless). Like seeing Victor, Shuan and Melvin outside, but did not come in because they are not having dinner with us.. us, trying to feed them food.. etc.. After dinner, went to walk around.. went to Esplanade sit down and talk cock.. talking about the left-breast pocket joke.. talking about the uncle breakdancing.. crapish la.. I enjoyed the evening.. Thank you guys for the company..

Well, it is already 3 weeks into my new job.. so far so good.. went for course with the B & E instructors.. they are a cool bunch of pple man! Had fun going for course with them.. they are just simply farni pple.. learnt a lot of things from pple all over the organisation.. Like LOAC, AAW, Powerboating, how to play super mario, etc...

Learn all the "xiao ming" jokes (ie: chinese jokes), entertained sex-content jokes (ie: why is a ship name after women... because they are always wet at the bottom... PENGZ!)... well well.. i wun say it is the best culture in the world.. but i would say.. if these things are harmless (ie: wun get anyone hurt), i am okie with it.. if i shun these remarks.. i cant adapt isnt it? ke ke, but it is farni..

learn to drink a little. Had a half-pint of hoegarden yesterday while with them.. start to enjoy beer. used to hate it.. but, a chilled beer on a hot day.. really good. of course.. not saying that alcohols are good.. but a little doesnt harm isnt it?

Something i dislike a lot, is the frequency they are smoking... everytime they have a break, they will have to go for their smoking break. and when they come in, they bring along a strong stench of 2nd hand smoke! think i will just die of 2nd hand smoke though i dont smoke. i think their believe is: since i am going to die of lung cancer due to 2nd hand smoke, then might as well join them right? Pretty silly isnt it?

I can adapt.. i will join, but i do have to think before i join any activity... i do yearn for company, and do hope to join in the group at times... BUT.. have to be rational at times... silly to go into smoking... so.. those who smokes, please give it up...

Something i discovered during the course.. well, during the course, i have to give 2 presentations to teach something you like.. i dun have anything really passionate about.. so i chose origami... i had good critics for my presentation, and 1 of the trainers, actually encouraged me to be a trained as a trainer.. i did have that notation in me.. call it a "calling".. one day on my way home.. i was just thinking.. y not? i enjoyed the whole process.. and i enjoy sharing information with pple.. so, why not.. And the trainers did mention that i have a natural flair in presentation.. and he cant imagine, with experience and exposure, how much better i can be. I felt inspired.. suddenly, i know what i want to do in life.. to be train as a trainer.. where i am now, is good.. and will look into areas that can help me to built my credentials... Just feel good.. that i know what i want in life... And it will be good if i can train in the youth sector. my passion..

And i realised, that my foundation was built well at heartware... i used to be fierce and unfriendly, till heartware or rather, Mas thought me how to get close to pple, and how to get them to work for u.. be personal and sincere.. that really helped me..

Heartware also gave me the opportunity to speak to pple, in proper english.. with Raymond's good american english, it gives me a good foundation to begin with. Now at my workplace, the standard of spoken english is horrible.. and with my spoken english, i actually gained some respect from some of them.. just because i speak well.. and now, when pple speak in horrible, grammatical english.. i find it irritating.. It is a day-to-day thing that, if i did not immerse myself in a good environment to begin with.. i will not be able to achieve what i achieved today.. (though it is not a lot.. )

Ha ha.. these days.. i have lesser expectations.. for example.. i learn to be thankful of what i have today.. then to ask for more materialistic things..

i am thankful that i have a happy family (included extended families), all healthy and happy...

i am thankful that i have Dear with me.. though he is still so far away, and did not run away with other women.. which is so easily done with some other guys..

i am thankful that i have 2 friends with me during my course.. and accompanied me to lunch..

i am thankful that these 2 friends of mine, introduced me to other friends in the course

i am thankful to have a good boss.. and everyone tells me that i have a good boss... and i know i have a good boss...

i am thankful to have a group of caring colleagues with me.. who are friendly and helped me adjust to the life in SAFTI

i am thankful that i have a group of friends in Heartware.. who is always available for me whenever i am down.. who can come out for gatherings often.. and never fail to tickle me...

i am thankful that i have a group of HR friends, that i still kept in contact with.. who always included me in their gathering.. very thankful

i am thankful to have my god-sisters around.. and keeping in contact...

i am thankful.. and i learn to treasure... friends out there.. start to count ur blessings before it is too late...  ¶ 7:08 PM

  :: End of holiday ::

yes, it is going to be the end of my vacation. Started clearing leave on 2nd May onwards.. and now.. it is already 14th May. Last day at HW is 15th May, and starting work at my new place on 16th May.

Exciting eh. Starting work at a new place. Have to get to know new pple, get to know my superiors and how they work, get to understand the culture and organisation structure. Many new things to learn. Somehow i am having mixed feelings. Excited to get a new job and environment, hesitant and nervous to step out of my comfort zone and venture. Well, i guess it cant be avoided. Just have to pray hard that everything goes smoothly, and i can cope well. It is a all-guys environment. No more gossipping and bitching ard with gers. ha haz..

Also, we just came back from holiday at Krabi, Thailand. It is a good getaway. 4D3N together is good time together. We went rock-climbing (0.5 days), Snorkelling (1 Day) and Kayaking (0.5 Day). It is a trip filled with activities. Scenary is good and refreshing. Air at the mangrove is fresh, and feeding monkeys is such close encounter with nature. Good trip.

Well, Dear will be leaving for Taiwan (again) in less then 24 hours. This time round, it is not so well plan as per previous trips. Previously, before he leaves, i will get a gauge on when we will be meeting each other again. But now, the next time i will be seeing him will be January 2007. That is pretty far away isnt it? that is 8 months away. Was just chatting and shared that we cant last 8 months away from each other. 4 months is bad enough. So, probably maybe in sept / oct, we may have to arrange a trip to somwhere. Best if i can go Taiwan together with the cadets in October. Then we can save a trip together. Well, plans are plans. It is not cast in stone. Maybe, sometimes due to unforseen circumstances, the timeline cant be fufilled. Especially this time round, with me in the new job, dunno if can take leave or not. This will be more tragic isnt it? Haiz..

Dear just told me he will onli be back in Aug / Sept 2007. Sianz. that is another 17 months away. (how come the number of months away is consistent at 17 months? in Jan, i counted, also 17 months... haiz) guess, the onli way around this is to be positive. I learn to put this phrase in my head, and it has helped me to feel better these days:

"If you love the person, you have to set him free."

Guess it is pretty true. If he really wans to go back to Taiwan, forcing him to stay in Singapore is not going to do the relationship any good. so well, though it is hardship and pain to maintain a long-distance relationship, guess that is the onli way to go? just have to hold on, and put in extra effort TOGETHER. Isnt it?

Well, will be looking forward for the next trip, either for me to go over, or him coming home. Hope it will not be too long away....  ¶ 4:05 PM